alterkrmn: Nozue from the manga Old Fashion Cupcake. His expression shows confusion. (Default)

Brief update on things I've finished these past few months and things I'm currently watching. I'm gonna try to write another general update soon, because I've been going through it and kind of isolated myself… Maybe the most relevant thing is that, somehow, The Prosecutor's Proposal took over my brain and possessed me to write again, but instead of finishing my Khemjira fic, I started a new WIP... just... this one is hornier. 


Finished watching

Dramas

  • Wishing Upon the Shooting Stars (Taiwanese BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: June 4. 

  • Unexpectedly Naughty Fukami (Japanese BL) – 10 episodes – Finished: June 8. 

  • Life in Smokey Blue (Japanese BL) –10 episodes – Finished: June 8. 

  • Love Upon a Time (Thai BL) –12 episodes – Finished: June 13. 

  • Flower Boy (Thai BL) – 8 episodes – Finished: June 13.

  • Double Helix (Chinese BL) –12 episodes – Finished: June 14.

  • Fake Fact Lips (Japanese BL) –10 episodes – Finished: June 25. 

  • The Boy and I who will break up in 100 days (Japanese BL) – 6 episodes – Finished: June 30.

  • Wu (Thai Drama) – 9 episodes – Finished: June 30.

  • Love of Silom (Thai BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: July 3.

  • Ticket to Heaven (Thai BL) – 6 episodes – Finished: July 4.

  • The Prosecutor’s Proposal (Korean BL) – 10 episodes – Finished: July 23.

  • A Dog and a Plane (Thai BL) – 10 episodes – Finished: July 31.

  • Payback (Thai BL) – 10 episodes – Finished: August 1.

  • Peach and Me (Thai BL) – 4 episodes – Finished: August 1.

  • The Edge of Horizon (Thai BL) – 11 episodes – Finished: August 29.

  • Painter of the Night (Korean BL - vertical) – 60 episodes – Finished: September 4.

  • Are the Sexy Buttocks Not Good? (Japanese BL) – 10 episodes – Finished: September 7.

  • Connecting to You (Taiwanese BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: September 11.

  • The Servant Prince (Japanese BL) – 9 episodes – Finished: September 11.

  • Don’t Be Too Emotional (Thai BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: September 11.

  • Love Destiny (Thai BL) – 10 episodes – Finished: September 15.

  • Knot (Thai BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: September 15.

  • The Lie We Lived In (Korean BL) – 8 episodes – Finished: September 16.


Movies

  • Office Romance (2026 - USA) – Finished: June 10.

  • Ran (1985 - Japan) – Finished: June 24. 

  • Labyrinth (1986 - USA/UK) – Finished: June 25.

  • Karate Kid Legends (2025 - USA) – Finished: July 10.

  • ATEEZ: Light the way (2026 - South Korea) – Finished: August 8.

  • Juan Gabriel: Mi Primer Bellas Artes (2026 - México) – Finished: September 6.

Finished reading

  • The Prosecutor’s Office Proposal (2023 - South Korea) – Finished: August 20.

Currently watching

Dramas

Weekly

  • Duty First, Kiss Later (Japanese BL) – 8/10 episodes – Mondays.

  • Khom Khlang (Thai GL) – 1/10 episodes – Mondays.

  • Nour (Thai BL) – 1/10 episodes – Wednesdays.

  • Summertime (Korean BL) – 8/10 episodes – Thursdays.

  • Hold on, Harutora-kun (Japanese BL) – 5/10 episodes – Fridays.

  • Police in Love (Thai BL) – 1/12 episodes – Saturdays.

  • The Missing Piece (Chinese BL) – 4/15 episodes – Saturdays/Sundays.

No schedule

  • Blossoms Shanghai (Chinese Drama) – 5/30 episodes.

Currently writing

  • I could be gentle (but that ain’t what you like)  – The Prosecutor’s Proposal fic (3978 words)


alterkrmn: Nozue from the manga Old Fashion Cupcake. His expression shows confusion. (Default)
So... I have missed a lot and trying to catch up is going to be kind of impossible, but hey, I'm back. I think. 
alterkrmn: Nozue from the manga Old Fashion Cupcake. His expression shows confusion. (Default)

Last Tuesday I got sick. I'd started feeling off since Monday night, with a bit of a scratchy throat and a headache, which I attributed to all the humidity and the changes in weather. Oh, beloved Mexican summer. The gremlin had some symptoms too… But I'd already arranged a hauling service to take the stove, the range hood, an electric toaster-oven, and a blender over to the apartment. So, on a rainy morning, I asked the gremlin to come with me, and our neighbor picked us up in his pickup truck. We headed out bundled up and with our respective face masks, and after dropping everything off, we came back by bus. I bought some tacos for us to have for lunch and told the gremlin I'd lie down for a bit before getting to work. But that didn't happen. The moment I lay down, the illness took hold of me and I couldn't get up. I fell into a feverish sleep and my whole body ached. It wasn't the most restful sleep, but I couldn't get up… so I didn't.

Almost always, when I get sick, the quickest way to beat the illness is by sleeping it off, but this time that wasn't enough. The next day I made a doctor's appointment, and the doctor saw both the gremlin and me and prescribed us some medication. Even though I wanted to get to work, I couldn't, so I ended up spending almost the whole day sleeping again. It was bronchitis. The gremlin's case was milder, and luckily he's already on break from school. 

But on Thursday I had my monthly deliverables due, so I had to summon strength from who knows where and finish my work. I didn't take any sick days, because the company doesn't give sick days and wouldn't grant me an extension to turn in my goals anyway. And on Friday I had the kitchen installation scheduled at the apartment. The apartment is about 30 kilometers from where I live, and I don't have a car, so any visit is a whole expedition. I took my work laptop with the silly idea of using my phone's mobile data to get online and work while they installed the kitchen, which was an utter failure because I couldn't connect at all, and it only stressed me out. In the end I gave in: I started weeding the apartment's backyard and then watching videos on my phone. When it was finally time to head home, I took the bus, hoping the rain wouldn't catch me. It did rain, but fortunately I didn't get wet. What did happen was that the trip took longer than usual, and I got tired… I got so, so tired. Then a lot of other things happened. The gremlin lost the money I'd given him for a class, and I got angry and frustrated, because, well, money isn't exactly something I have to spare…

An intense week.

On Saturday I went to my Chinese class. It was fine, but I felt very, very tired. I think it's not just the aftereffects of the illness, but also some iron deficiency. And even though I've been taking supplements for almost a month now, I'm still waiting to feel the effects, because being tired all day is really annoying and inconvenient.

And I'm a little disappointed, because a museum in my city is screening some Asian films this month, and I'd wanted to go see them all, but between everything going on last week and wanting to be responsible and not infect anyone (I wouldn't have been able to go even if I were irresponsible and a jerk, because I really felt like I was going to die, but I'm not enough of an asshole to do that anyway), I didn't go see the ones that screened last week (Drive My Car and In the Mood for Love) or the one today (Monster). Next week they're screening Ran and No Other Choice, and I hope I can make it to those. Sometimes it frustrates me not being able to take part more in that kind of activity, and also not really knowing where to find some of those films online… I've lost my touch for sailing the seven seas… I need to learn all over again. At times I'm even tempted to start a film club, but I really don't have the energy to organize something like that. I know of a place where I could host it if I wanted to, but I'd need to think it over carefully. Anyway. If I have the energy tomorrow, I'll finish writing and posting my media update.

alterkrmn: Nozue from the manga Old Fashion Cupcake. His expression shows confusion. (Default)

Heeeeeeeey! I'm back!

I don't remember exactly which day I started writing this update, but a lot of days have passed already (I think a couple of weeks, even). I finished the project I was working on, and maybe I ended up more tired than I imagined, and then I got sick, and then it was my birthday week, and that same week I had to go to the office and, the next day, to the apartment, because they're finally going to install the kitchen. These have been hectic days, and even though there's good news, I've felt strangely disconnected from everything. From a lot of things. And tired, very tired. But I've kept watching my BL series and I think that helps me. So here goes the summary.

Finished watching

Dramas

Duang With You (Thai BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: April 19.

I started this series when seven episodes had already aired, because I kept seeing a lot of positive comments and also certain mentions about the personality of one of the leads that made me curious, and once I started watching it, I couldn't stop. It was a surprise, because stories about college students usually aren't my favorites, but there's something about this series that won my heart. Maybe it's that it has so much tenderness, or maybe it was that I saw a lot of myself in Qinn, or that, even though Duan seemed so enthusiastic and effusive at first that it felt like too much, he also seemed so genuine… or that Duan's group of friends felt very real in the way they interacted… or all of it together… or that I'm getting older and I feel like constant cynicism is exhausting and this was just so warm even though there were some angsty moments… I don't know. But I really ended up liking it a lot. Some episodes made me cry, but overall it was a very sweet and very happy series. I went to watch the finale of this one and of My Romance Scammer at an in-person event and I had a great time.

My Romance Scammer (Thai BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: April 19.

I enjoyed this series a lot too, but I admit there were moments when I really wished the writers had been more skilled, because I feel it had the potential to develop some plot points better, like Tim's debt and his relationship with his family, or the feelings North expressed at some point about not being convinced that marriage was something he truly wanted. But I guess I ended up forgiving those disappointments because 1) I love Junior. He has a certain something that makes me smile like an idiot when he's on screen, and I think that started ever since I saw him in Cherry Magic. 2) I really liked the OhmPoom pairing. In the end, and despite the flaws in the writing, I feel there's something very particular about certain Thai series, and it's that they touch very sensitive emotional chords in very interesting ways, even if they sometimes fall short in terms of plot coherence. Of course a well-thought-out plot with as few holes as possible is always appreciated, but in these cases you don't always find that, and you have to weigh whether you enjoyed it and whether that's enough. In my particular case, yes, I enjoyed it, but I don't think I'll rewatch it, and it definitely doesn't make it onto my list of favorites, nor is it one of those that leave a particular mark on me.

What Did You Eat Yesterday? (Japanese BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: April 26.

This is one of the ones I was watching without a fixed schedule, but over the past few weeks, even with a lot of work, I'd make time to watch an occasional episode during my lunch break. I liked it a lot, mostly because the leads are mature, and also because I love series where food works as a way to show affection. It's one of my weaknesses. I cried more than once, especially because I found the way the leads' problems are shown very real: their insecurities, how complicated it can be to make friends when you belong to a minority, the fear of coming out in work settings, family expectations, etc. etc. Nothing I'm not familiar with, and well, it's nice to see stories that don't just revolve around the beginning of a relationship. I love those kinds of stories, even if I end up sniffly and crying alone mid-afternoon at home on a random weekday. I still have the special episode and the second season pending, but that will be for later. I also tried to start reading the manga, but I think I'll look for it in print, because these days I've been reading a lot of manga on screen and it tires my eyes.

Living with Him (Japanese BL) – 8 episodes – Finished: April 28.

I watched this one in six days, again, one or two episodes a day while eating. I watched it because Saen mentioned it in one of my posts when I talked about Countdown to Yes; they commented that the description sounded similar. So I got curious to see how similar the premises were, and I admit there are some points in common: one of the leads has had a crush on his friend since childhood, and they spend a period living together (while studying at college); plus, the doubt one of the leads feels after the other's confession. But in Countdown to Yes, the leads separate after university because one of them goes to work in Hokkaido, and then comes back, years later, still in love. But anyway, in the end I got to see the similarities and the differences, and I enjoyed this one a lot too. I don't know, sometimes I'm in a mood that's very in tune with Japanese series that have a slightly slower pace, where not that much happens in the plot and the story focuses more on how the characters face their feelings. I don't know, I can say that this kind of story really draws me in, regardless of the setting.

Only Friends: Dream On (Thai BL) – 12 episodes – Finished: May 16.

I have many, many opinions about this series, some not very good (I admit there were times when I got bored and struggled to get through the episodes, but not enough to drop it), and others that are more like questions I'm asking myself and about the expectations that come with the series being labeled Only Friends. Others are more like: how would I be understanding the story on its own if I didn't have the context I have? I mean, the fixed/established ships and the expectations this creates (the couple has to end up together, and what that implies for the limitations of the plot line itself, the fandom that goes wild if someone "gets in the way" of their ship even if it's a fictional story)… I'd like to explore these questions, but I don't have the mental energy. Would it have been different if it wasn't labeled as Only Friends? In general, I think I expected more chaos between the couples and I didn't end up enjoying it much because of some attitudes of the characters and how one of them was treated because of a job he used to have. One of the things I did like was Mix's performance as Dean. I loved him, and I admit it was one of the reasons I kept watching week after week.

Love You Teacher (Thai BL) – 10 episodes – Finished: May 16.

Ahhhh, this series was a strange case. I started watching it out of pure curiosity. I didn't remember the trailer very clearly, and there were certain conversations from people who were uncomfortable with the premise (one of the members of the main couple has an accident and suffers age regression, which leads him to act like a seven-year-old child) and what it could mean if it wasn't handled the right way, but that was precisely what led me to watch it, because I'm a contrarian, and sometimes the fact that a lot of people don't want to watch something makes me even more curious. But it surprised me so much. It was a series that made me cry in every single episode, no exceptions. It deals with themes of mental health, support networks, complicated family relationships, and love in the face of difficult life situations, like an accident or a disability. And it does it in a very sensitive way, from my point of view. I read criticism from people who complained that it wasn't realistic enough, or that things were resolved too cleanly, but I think that's also a matter of expectations and (in my not at all humble opinion) trouble engaging with the text on the text's own terms. I don't know, it's something I've seen a lot in general from people who watch certain series and demand that they be something they're not. Let me explain: would you ask Frankenstein for realism by questioning how possible it is to assemble a human being out of corpse parts like it's done in the story? No, because that's part of how the story tells what it wants to tell. Anyway, I don't want to get too philosophical, but yeah, it is something that bothers me a little and maybe part of why I feel somewhat out of place even among some people I can talk about series with… but I got a bit off topic, didn't I? This series definitely goes onto my list of favorites of the year (and in general). And I definitely want to rewatch it. I recommend it, but you do have to keep the content warnings in mind, they even include them at the beginning of certain episodes.

Marahuyo Project (Filipino BL) – 8 episodes – Finished: May 20.

One of my goals this year was to watch series from other countries, and the Philippines was on my radar. It's not the most prolific country when it comes to BL, but at least a couple of people recommended some that, according to them, are very much worth it. Marahuyo Project is among those, and they were definitely right. I enjoyed it from start to finish. I fell in love with King, because he's the combative young man who doesn't stay silent in the face of injustice, and that's exactly what sets off the plot: he has a conflict with a homophobic teacher and, after that, his father sends him from Manila to the small island of Marahuyo, where his mother and grandmother live. There he has to study at a very small university and face a society that's even more conservative than the capital's; but he also meets a small group of friends that includes Venice, a trans girl who is charming and funny; Lorie, the goddaughter of an influential family in town, who is a lesbian and decides to ally herself with the newcomer King when he decides they should found an LGBTQIA+ student organization at their university; Lili, Lorie's best friend; and Ino, the president of the student council. I'm so glad I watched this series, it's simply very beautiful, so heartfelt, so queer. Another reason I loved it was that I could really see that yes, Filipinos and Latinos are like cousins (damn colonization) and that I can easily imagine this story happening in a town in Oaxaca or Veracruz. Another one that goes onto my list of favorites.

Movies

  • The Red Envelope (Thai Film) – Finished: May 3. I haven't seen the Taiwanese movie, but I have to say I enjoyed this one a lot. It made me laugh, but of course I ended up crying at the end.
  • Let's Go Karaoke! (Japanese Film) – Finished: May 6. I enjoyed this movie a lot. I laughed, and then I cried. And then I laughed again.

Anime

  • Unexpectedly Naughty Fukami – 8 episodes. It was very explicit lol. But look, I'm kind of obsessed with this story because of aro Fukami.

Currently reading

Convenience Store Woman – Murata Sayaka (Tr. Ginny Tapley Takemori).

I haven't made progress, between my busy schedule and the fact that new things that catch my attention always come up, like the mangas I started and devoured. But I know I'll eventually come back to this book and finish it. Sometimes it's better to just flow, to go back and forth, than to fight with my brain.

Unexpectedly Naughty Fukami (manga) – 21/? chapters (available on ebookrenta)

I started this one because I'm watching the live action adaptation and it made me curious. My curiosity came mostly from wanting to know the level of spice in the manga (I know, I know…). It begins with an improvised sexual encounter between Kaji, the star salesman, and Fukami, a quiet employee from the IT department, when they're away on a work trip. Kaji finds Fukami unexpectedly sexy and becomes obsessed with him, to the point of wanting to be his fuck buddy. Fukami agrees, but on the condition that Kaji doesn't fall in love with him. I don't really know what I was expecting, but I have to say it surprised me a little. Of course, Kaji ends up falling in love with Fukami as he gets to know him, and Fukami definitely also considers the relationship they're building to be important, but what interests me most is that Fukami says he has never experienced romantic feelings for anyone, but he has a high sex drive. That was the interesting part for me, because, although the relationship keeps moving forward and evolving, Fukami seems to keep that trait, even after he ends up moving in with Kaji in Hokkaido, a few months after the latter is transferred there for work. The combination of a (possibly) aromantic but not asexual character (like me) definitely interested me, and I kept reading until I ran out of available translated chapters. And I also confess that I'm very bad at reading things that are still in the process of being published… but my curiosity always ends up winning D: I read that Seven Seas is going to publish it in September of this year, but I don't know…

Life in Smokey Blue (manga) – 25/? chapters

I'm reading this one unofficially, with scanlations that people have kindly uploaded to sites I'm not going to name, since, as far as I know, there's no official translation into English or Spanish. I started this story also thanks to the live action, because I couldn't resist. First of all, the leads are men almost reaching 40, like yours truly. And I definitely appreciate reading or watching stories about characters closer to my age range. This story has that melancholic vibe I like so much. Kuji Shizuka is a translator who rescues Azuma Sakutaro, a former coworker, from someone who wanted to take advantage of him at a bar, and he ends up offering him a part-time job as his translation assistant when he finds out Azuma is unemployed. These two men had one (1) passionate sexual encounter in the past, but Kuji vanished back then. Now they reunite and Azuma decides to give it a try, and they end up having sex again. They establish a relationship as colleagues, but also as roommates (because Kuji offers Azuma a place to live in his home) and as lovers. Kuji has always had feelings for Azuma, and Azuma has too, but neither of them expresses it verbally. Instead, the evolution of the relationship is shown in the way they coexist, in how they care for each other, in the small changes they make in their lives to adjust to one another. But that's not all. The fact that part of what the characters do revolves around translation is definitely a delight, not only because it's a topic that fascinates me, but because of what it implies: understanding, grasping an idea and being able to convey it in a completely different language, and I think it works as an analogy for Kuji and Azuma's relationship. Something I'm also loving is that it deals with the crises of people in their 40s: existential crises around work, crises around aging and dying parents, mundane adult responsibilities, and challenges like having to find a place to live when the house you've always lived in doesn't belong to you and you have to hand it over to someone else, and how all of that influences the way the leads relate to each other and to the world. I need more, but I have to be patient. In Japanese there are already 8 volumes published, but in scanlations, only 5.

Currently writing

The Pulse Beneath (Khemjira fic)

  • English version – 4/8 chapters (6907 words)
  • Spanish version – 4/8 chapters (7097 words) It's paused because I'm focusing on my work.

Currently playing

  • My Burning Heart – Ertal Games. I haven't made any progress at all.

Currently watching

Dramas

Weekly

Life in Smokey Blue (Japanese BL) – Mondays – 8/10 episodes

I'm liking it a lot. I already read what's available in English, and I'm waiting for more chapters to become available, but from what I've read so far, I think the adaptation is good. Plus, Takeda Kouhei <3 I love him. There's also the detail that the screenwriter and the director are the same ones who worked on When It Rains It Pours, which I also liked a lot. I won't mention much of the plot here, because I already talked a bit about it above, when I mentioned the manga, but I will say that the visual aspect and the pacing, plus the performances, are coming across as delicious to me. Absolutely delicious. I hope the remaining chapters stay just as enjoyable, and that the point they adapt up to has a satisfying ending, unless they're thinking of doing another season afterward (a person can dream, right?). Also, Takeda is very enthusiastic about it and always shares things related to the mangaka and the manga.

Unexpectedly Naughty Fukami (Japanese BL) – Mondays – 8/10 episodes

I admit there are parts I don't love, like the NC scenes (although they've been improving a little compared to the ones in the first episodes), but the episodes are so short that I forgive it. I imagine they're going to adapt up to roughly the same point the anime adapted. For now, I've also run out of manga chapters translated into English D: I have to be patient.

Wishing Upon the Shooting Stars (Taiwanese BL) – Thursdays – 11/12 episodes

This series tells the sad story of a boy who studied arts and returns home defeated, to a small and very charming island, to the guesthouse his father owns, but one night, he is talking to an old friend (Li Wangzhe) and they go to talk near the coast. That night they see shooting stars and He Xianyong makes a wish: to disappear. His friend wishes for an intense and passionate love. But it's a story where it soon becomes clear that you always have to be careful what you wish for. I've cried more than I'd like to admit, but I think that's the constant with the series I'm loving these days. I usually say that sad endings don't bother me, but this time I don't know. I don't want a sad ending, ha.

Love Upon a Time (Thai BL) – Fridays – 9/12 episodes

I think this series won me over little by little. The first episodes seemed a bit slow to me, and I felt that maybe certain situations dragged on more than necessary, but I kept watching every episode and now I really need to know how it's going to end. Nakun makes a wish on a shooting star and the meteorite literally falls on him. When he wakes up, he finds himself in the kingdom of Ayutthaya and everyone calls him by another name. He soon discovers that there are many mysteries to solve about Klao, the person whose place he now occupies, and about his family; but he also finds an unexpected bond that he'll have to decide how to face. On one hand, there are certain aspects I like and that leave my heart both clenched and content, but I do think it could have been shorter. I also like the second pair a lot.

Love of Silom (Thai BL) – Fridays – 6/12 episodes

I can't believe we're already at the halfway point. Wayu works as a host at a bar, where he also dances. There he meets Kritt, a police captain, under not very fortunate circumstances. Wayu is the only financial provider for his family, made up of his mother and his nephew, the little and adorable Singto. Kritt recruits him as an informant for a case of drug trafficking and human trafficking, in exchange for covering all of Singto's expenses, since he requires special care. And from there, their relationship develops.

Fake Fact Lips (Japanese BL) – Thursdays – 6/12 episodes

This one has been very fun and adorable. Two rivals who've known each other since middle school and compete over everything dare each other to see who can make the other fall in love first. They're both idiots, but I love them. (Is it evident I'm running out of steam?)

Flower Boy (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 5/8 episodes

Very soap-opera-like. The scent theme reminds me suspiciously of omegaverse, and I keep watching it because it's entertaining, but it's definitely not one of my favorites right now.

Double Helix (Chinese BL) – Fridays/Sundays – 6/12 episodes

It's a Chinese BL and I started it because I saw the trailer and it promised a lot of toxicity :D. So far it's been pretty calm, although Lu Feng exasperates me. And I'm always waiting for when things are going to get ugly. I hope it happens soon.

Wu (Thai drama) – Tuesdays – 4/9 episodes

I admit I haven't watched any Sky-Nani dramas until now, but I started watching this one because of the supernatural theme and because of the controversy that came from the fact that it was initially going to air on Gaga, when it's apparently categorized as a bromance, and because of how everyone was giving their opinion even before it started airing. So I couldn't not try to watch it, to judge it for myself. And I'm enjoying it a lot so far, honestly. I love it when characters have to face their inner demons, literally or figuratively :)

ChermChey (Thai BL) – Tuesdays – 1/10 episodes

The first episode was fun, but this week they released two and I haven't watched them. I also found out it belongs to the same universe as Tonhon Chonlatee and Ai Long Nhai, and now I feel more curious to watch Tonhon Chonlatee, despite people's warnings, but let me tell you that the more people warn me not to watch something, the more curious I'm going to get about watching it.

No schedule

  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – 11/49 episodes
  • The Pitt S1 (US drama) – 3/15 episodes
  • Hard Nights (Thai drama) – 3/16 episodes
  • Khemjira (Thai BL) – Rewatch

Anime

  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 9/12 episodes

On hold

Books

  • Counterattack – Chai Jidan (柴鸡蛋) – Chapter 198

Anime

  • Komi Can't Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas

  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Documentary

  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No schedule – 3/4 episodes
And that's it. If you made it to this point... Here, have a cookie, because omg, this was looooong.
alterkrmn: Nozue from the manga Old Fashion Cupcake. His expression shows confusion. (Default)

The last two weeks I've been very busy with work, closing the monthly assignment for March-April and starting the one for April-May, which this time includes the extra subject I'm building as an author and not as a reviewer (that’s three courses). Last Wednesday I didn't sleep much to finish my deliverable, and on Thursday I had to go to the office, which is always, always a big effort, even though I'm a great actor and in my most cynical moments I call myself the king of masking. So doing it sleep-deprived was even harder.

Then the weekend got even more intense, because I kept working intensively on my deliverable for this week, since I already had commitments and wouldn’t be able to work non-stop on Saturday and Sunday. On Saturday, I had therapy (which was very intense), final Mandarin exam, lunch with the Mandarin group to celebrate the end of the course, and then eating cake with my brother because his birthday was on Friday. Then, on Sunday, I watched two episodes of BL dramas that ended: Duang with You and My Romance Scammer.

But it doesn't end there. In December I bought a ticket for Jackson Wang's concert in the capital, as part of his world tour Magic Man 2, because ever since I listened to that album (almost the same way Khemjira helped me get out of the depressive hole I was in) I connected with its songs on an extremely personal level, and that helped me in prioritizing myself after years of trying to live to other people’s expectations. The concert was yesterday, Monday, April 20, and I asked for two days of PTO to be able to go and to recover today. But traveling always requires a very high amount of energy from me.

And even though the whole weekend was full of activities, and last weekI was still doubting whether to go to the concert, in the end the phrase "you only live once" (maybe because it's mentioned in the song "GBAD") kept resonating in my head.  Maybe my nervousness was because at some point I started feeling a strange anxiety (which in the end I think was motivated by the fact that the concert was on a Monday, and that meant disconnecting from work*) and my head got paranoid, even making me believe that maybe it was one of those moments when your intuition "warns" you about something**, but in the end I said: if something happens, why would I run away? Haven't I wished a thousand times that "something would happen"? And that's how I decided to go, and nothing happened, so I really think it was my anxiety about being absent on a Monday, because deep down, even though I'm reforming myself after burnout, I'm still a workaholic, for some reason (fear of losing my job, I think). The important thing is that I loved every second of the concert, and there was even a moment when I couldn't hold back my tears, when Jackson talked about the creative process behind that album, because his explanation ended up resonating with what I had already felt when I listened to it before. But besides that, it was a great show, and the energy was amazing, Jackson is a great performer. And afterwards, when I was finally home and in bed, my brain was still so hyped that I couldn’t sleep. 

"GBAD" has become part of my personal anthem list, because, even though I always think about death, I believe that despite how heavy the beginning of last year was, and the dark moments I came out of in the second half, there's a stubborn part of me that clings to enjoying the stay while I'm here. Somewhere I posted this: "Tricking myself into living longer", in a moment of delirium from lack of sleep and the honesty that only comes out when you're most vulnerable, but motivated by the hundreds of things I want to see and do (like GAHT, or traveling abroad, for example). And some of those things, everything I do to "trick myself" into living a little longer, are great, and fun, and I enjoy them.

Maybe I'm contradictory, but I've never said I'm not.

Anyway, as Jackson Wang would say: "Life is great (just gotta be a dick sometimes)."

*And I did disconnect, even though they sent me messages on Teams and even assigned me a ticket to solve, even when my status was clearly marked as away and I had set up automatic replies. So my anxiety was a little justified, because I know those fuckers. But PTO is PTO, and I wasn't going to ruin my day over things that aren't even urgent and that no one's going to die from.

** Something, like a car accident or any other disaster that could end in death… Even though I don't believe in supernatural things, there have been several times in my life when, by feeling something weird and making decisions based on that nervous feeling, I've saved myself from accidents or even being there alone during a home burglary. I have no explanation for that.

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Let's be honest: I don’t think I'll ever catch up on my comments about eeeeeeverything I've finished watching these past few months, and I'm at peace with that. I don't always have the time, or the energy, or the spoons to sit down and write, but today I'm on spring break (thanks, Catholics, I guess) and I have time and motivation, so let's give it a try. There's quite a lot, as always, lol. But I've implemented a different division in my list of what I'm currently watching: what I watch weekly and what has no schedule. The latter are funny cases, because sometimes I go crazy and finish them in an afternoon or two, as has happened several times already. Anyway, let's get started.

Finished watching

Dramas

 Cosmetic Playlover S2 (Japanese BL) – 10 episodes

This was the second season of this series and it was fine. It hasn't been among my favorites, not for any particular reason, but it didn't grab me as much, and well… sometimes that happens. Regardless, I enjoyed seeing the characters grow as they face challenges in their relationship and decisions they have to make regarding their careers. I think that's interesting, and I didn't dislike watching the protagonists live their domestic life and commit to the bond they built in the first season, but it didn't excite me, and I didn’t eagerly await each new episode. It might also be somewhat influenced by the fact that when I finished the first season, I read the manga and it's much spicier. It's not that I need adaptations to maintain the same level of explicit content to enjoy them, but sometimes I feel that does matter in how you understand the dynamics of the relationships between the characters, and in this case, I think there was a certain sexual tension that never quite culminated. And personally, I do like smut.

Countdown to Yes (Japanese BL) – 10+1 episodes

This might seem contradictory, but in the case of this series, I liked it much more than the previous one. I fell behind a couple of times, but that was more because I was watching it week by week and because I got busy doing other things (work or my WIP). I think this particular series works better if watched all at once, because it's short and because not much really happens, but this can also vary depending on personal preference. I don't care about MDL reviews, for example, and sometimes not even comments from acquaintances who watch the same things I do at the same time. In this case, many people commented that they found it slow and boring, but I found it calm, soothing, and soft.

The protagonists are two friends who met in high school and are united by their love of photography. They live as roommates in college, and as they grow up and become adults with their own goals and works, they discover that their bond is more than friendship, but one of them resists admitting it and insists that things shouldn't change, afraid of losing the friendship he values so much. There were moments when this attitude seemed a bit exasperating to me, but at the same time very logical and easy to understand, even if that sounds contradictory. I liked the pace and that it was basically watching them go on dates taking photos while exploring that internal conflict they have. The last episode was an "after story," which means the main story had already concluded, but I'm counting it because I still had to wait a week to mark it as finished.

Therapy (Korean series) – 4 episodes

Look, I don't have much explanation for this. It's basically censored soft porn. But I watched it because I saw several mutuals mention it and I got curious. The premise is even a little funny, and the fact that one of the characters always has the same clinical attitude and expressionless face, I don't know… I found it amusing but I don’t know if it’s intended to be arousing. I think one could easily use the premise to write PWP fanfiction about practically any couple, and I even think I've read something like that somewhere. Do I recommend it? Well, I’m not sure lol.

Cat for Cash (Thai BL) – 10 episodes

I watched this for First and Khaotung, of course. At first I thought talking cats would make me cringe a lot, but little by little I realized the story was about complicated family relationships, grief, learning to understand and forgive someone who's no longer here, and opening up to others even when it's hard. In the end, there were moments where I cried a lot. Of course, there were funny and nonsensical things, like Tiger's allergy. It's the mildest and least annoying/dangerous allergy I've ever seen, lol. I don't have a diagnosed cat allergy, but last Sunday when I went to see the final episode at a cat café, I was definitely much more affected than Tiger, lol. I had to take an antihistamine and only stopped having irritated eyes and nose after leaving the place. But anyway, it was a soft, easy-to-watch series. And it made me cry :)

Always Meet Again (Korean BL) – 8 episodes

I watched it over a couple of weeks. I started it one day simply because nothing on my list appealed to me and because there were already six episodes available thanks to iQIYI VIP, so I only had to wait for the last two to come out. I like the “time travel to save someone” premise, but personally I prefer to better understand what triggers the time travel, and in this series, not many things are explained. I was left with many questions, and I haven't found out if it's based on a novel or manhwa. If that's the case, it could be another example for my research on script problems in series. It happens a lot. I feel it happens less in Japanese series (from what I’ve seen), but it's a constant and I find it fascinating. Anyway, I'm going to find out, and if a source exists, maybe I'll read it to see if all those questions are resolved or not, which is also a possibility (like what happened with The Director Who Buys Me Dinner).

La Oficina (Mexican series) – 8 episodes 

I watched this series only out of curiosity. First, someone on a Spanish-speaking Discord server mentioned it and talked about the rancid, uncomfortable humor of this series. Then I saw a TikTok content creator I like talk about it and mention that they liked it because it's not a carbon copy of The Office, but an adaptation. So, obviously (in case my fixation with adaptations isn't obvious at this point) I decided to watch it. The first two episodes didn't fully hook me, but… buuuuuut, the fact that the humor makes many references to Mexican culture (old internet memes, things that actually happen in real life workplaces) made me keep watching. There were uncomfortable moments, there were moments when I wasn't sure I understood the jokes (something that doesn't only happen to me with fiction, but in real life because of autism ._.) and there were moments when I thought maybe I wasn't enjoying it much because I was never a fan of The Office (I never saw the original and never finished the US version).

But I don't know, I kept watching until I finished it and I have to admit I did have fun, and largely it's precisely because it's really not a copy of The Office, but an adaptation of the premise (mockumentary, a work team with "the worst boss in the world") to the particular context of Mexico and what that implies. Also, it doesn't normalize the situations and it does make you squirm with cringe. God, so much, so much cringe. And to sum it up, I'll use a meme: It's horrible, I love it. Also, now I'm a fan of 3SIMM, iykyk :P


Anime

Isekai Office Worker: The Other World's Books Depend on the Bean Counter – 12 episodes

This was fun, I liked the premise and the story. I liked the idea of a stranger from our world who is such a workaholic that, upon arriving in a universe where he had no need to work, he asked for a job anyway, and how that helped solve problems in that universe, ha. But I also admit that the basis of the relationship between the protagonists is one of my favorite tropes (fuck or die~). Oops. I'm curious about the novel or manga, but I need to look for them and I don't know if they're translated.



Currently reading
  • Convenience Store Woman - Murata Sayaka (Tr. Ginny Tapley Takemori). It's a story about a Japanese woman who works at a konbini. I've only gotten a quarter of the way through, because that's how I read, you know: I can take months to make progress and then finish it all at once. It's an interesting read because it's about a woman who has to put on a mask of "normality" to fit into society. Where have I heard that before?

Currently writing

The pulse beneath (Khemjira fic, work in progress)
  • English version - 4/8 chapters (6914 words)
  • Spanish version - 3/8 chapters (4690 words)

I have a lot of thoughts about the act of writing, the relationship with beta readers (especially given my professional background), and about how hard it is for me to self-promote (and how I avoid it as much as I can because anxiety and avoidance, I guess). I'm really enjoying the process of shaping this story that, on a normal workday, in some random week almost four months ago, assaulted me, possessed me, and made me write it.

It's been very fun to see how it transforms from my first chaotic scribbles in a notebook to the countless drafts I have in my folder (there are sooo many drafts). Also all the time I've spent reading about details of Thai culture and daily life just to have a better context for my story, even though in the end very few of what I've read appears in the final text. At one point I compared this process to academic work, where you review dozens of sources and learn a lot, but often your final reference list doesn't reflect all that time invested.

I also want to mention the importance beta readers have for me. Maybe I'll go deeper into this in another specific post about it. But here I'll just mention my relationship with the text revision process, given my profession (I've been an editor and I'm a copy editor… partially, because now my main role is as an instructional designer and I only do editing as part of a bigger process), and how at first I was very anxious about asking for the things I wanted the beta reader to do, what I wanted them to focus on, because in my profession I'm very, very picky and a horrible perfectionist (and also a pain in the ass, I have… a reputation). But at the same time I understand that a beta reader won't always have the experience or training, and that, regardless, their help is still extremely valuable because an extra pair of eyes can always see something that as an author we might take for granted, or ask questions that help clarify certain passages of the story that one understands because one conceived it, but that might not make sense to a reader. Or things like that. I got lucky and, fortunately, I found very kind and thoughtful beta readers.

I don't know when I'm going to finish working on this WIP, but I confess I started publishing it because I wanted to do it before the Khemjira special episode came out, lol.

Another thought I have about this is that all my fics are restricted access on AO3 and that maybe limits their reach, but I've never actually written for kudos or popularity. It's strange, I suppose. Thinking about readers' expectations gives me anxiety, and once I finish (or abandon, lol, sorry, it's happened many times) a fic, it's like I've written a letter to vent and put it in a bottle and thrown it into the sea. The difference is that if someone finds it and likes what they read, and if they leave me kudos or comments, it's nice, but I don't live with the expectation of having hundreds and hundreds of readers. If someone appreciates it and lets me know, it's very welcome, but nothing happens if no one likes it or leaves kudos or comments (that's also happened). And that's it… I'll come back to this later, in another post. Maybe.



Currently playing
  • My Burning Heart - Ertal Games. I haven't progressed much further in this visual novel since I started playing it, but I'm not in a hurry either. When I feel like it, I'll pick it up again.

Currently watching

Dramas

It seems like a lot, but if we're strict, my list of things I watch weekly is quite reasonable. The ones with no schedule or date are variable and I don't feel they add to the pressure, so my list actually feels quite relaxed.

Weekly
  • My Romance Scammer (Thai BL) – Sundays – 9/12 episodes. I've liked this series quite a bit so far and it's made me cry a couple of times. I admit I get very distracted when Junior is on screen because I like him, lol. Also, the pairing of U (Ohm) and North (Poom) seems extremely cute to me.
  • Duang With You (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 9/12 episodes. I started it one day and caught up very quickly with the available episodes, and now it's one of the ones I watch weekly. It's a very cute and cheerful series. At first Duang exasperated me a lot because he's very effusive and clingy, but now I adore him. Qin, on the other hand, is very relatable.
  • Only Friends: Dream On (Thai BL) – Fridays – 5/12 episodes. I like the chaos and how selfish ALL the characters are in this series, but I want more chaos. I want someone to kiss (or make out or fuck, I’m not picky) Boston, I want something to explode, I want a threesome or an orgy or something. Gimme gimmee! But I also have to mention that I love Mix in this role, I LOVE him. I also like a lot the references and not so subtle critique to the entertainment (and BL) industry.
  • Wishing Upon the Shooting Stars (Taiwanese BL) – Thursdays – 3/12 episodes. I like the premise and I hadn't seen a Taiwanese BL in a while, so it seemed perfect to start watching this one. I don't have much to say about it yet.
  • Love You Teacher (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 3/10 episodes. This one has already made me cry in its three episodes. I also thought it was going to be cringey, but surprisingly, it's not (to me, maybe it is for others). People who don't know how to ask for help, people who seem overwhelmed by what life throws at them? Insecurity, not feeling like they’re enough? I'm in. Add to that someone who is always the one supporting everyone and shows a cheerful face, but who might be dealing with more than others imagine… Also, Santa has very pretty eyes and his face is very pleasant to look at. Let's hope the narrative stays this way and the ending is good, because I have to admit that many series often don't have very strong endings (that includes many of the series I've liked as well).
  • Love Upon a Time (Thai BL) – Fridays – 1/12 episodes. This one is brand new and has time travel, so I'm a bit expectant, but trying not to expect too much because that's safer in case it ends up disappointing. You know the drill.
No schedule
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – 9/49 episodes. I need to pick it up again, I want to pick it up again, but I don't know why I have such a hard time watching series on Viki. It's a general thing: I really struggle to watch series on this platform. I think it's somewhat the interface. It has nothing to do with the series themselves (I even like the subtitles), and it's a bit frustrating. And when the series that are here are also elsewhere, I prefer to watch them on the other… Ugh.
  • The Pitt (US drama) – 3/15 episodes. I'll probably finish watching the first season when I need to do something manual and need something I can listen to without having to read subtitles. I admit I was skeptical, but it is good. I did like it and want to see more, but I'm not always in the mood to watch a medical drama because sometimes it gets gross or scary.
  • Hard Nights (Thai drama) – 3/16 episodes. I've fallen behind on this one, and most likely I'll end up watching it all in one go over a weekend. It's also been an issue that the TV app doesn't work in my bedroom and I don't love watching series on my laptop. Even if I didn't have a problem with that, it was broken for almost a month and I couldn't even do that D:
  • What Did You Eat Yesterday? (Japanese BL) – 3/12 episodes. I needed to finally start this. I love stories about more mature adults with already established relationships. Also, I love stories where food is a way of showing love.
  • Khemjira (Thai BL) – Rewatch. Well, it's because I need comfort, and also because it helps me remember or visualize the characters' gestures or expressions for my fic. And I'll probably watch it more times until I finish writing it. How many? I don't know. I'd also like to try to write that post about Khemjira that I said I would write, but I'm not promising anything, I'm not promising anything… I'm terrible, I know, but it is what it is. Sorry.

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 9/12 episodes. I haven't abandoned it. I think I could finish it this weekend. I like it, it's cute, but I don't know why I forget to watch it. I've wanted to ask for anime recommendations, but then when I get them and don't watch them, I feel guilty. Also, I have three pending… One condition for recommendations is that they're not super long with a thousand seasons (yes, I'm looking at you, One Piece). I don't have much patience to keep up with them, but that happens to me with live action series too.

On hold

Books
  • Counterattack – Chai Jidan (柴鸡蛋) – Chapter 198

Anime
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

And that's the upddate. I'll be back at... some point.
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This is a quick update, because I have low energy and because I've been putting it off since the end of January. I'm just making a list of the things I've finished watching or reading, but I'm not going to go into much depth here. I have drafts for some of the series I've finished, and I might write them, but I can't promise anything. We can talk about them in the comments, if anyone is interested in reading my opinions in a less structured or extended way.

Finished watching
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – 12 episodes ( January 23)
  • DMD Friendship Reality, the Third Chapter (Thai reality show) – 6 episodes (January 25)
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – 13 episodes (January 30)
  • Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – 10 episodes (Febraury 4)
  • Dare You to Death (Thai BL) – 10 episodes (February 26)
  • How Dare You!? (Chinese drama) – 32 episodes (February 26)
  • Heated Rivalry (Canadian drama)  – 6 episodes (March 9) (rewatch)
  • KinnPorsche (Thai BL) – 14 episodes (March 14)

Finished reading
  • Panguan – Musuli –  117 chapters (extras not included, i Suppose I’ll have to wait for the licensed TL ToT) (February 8)
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 – MXTX – 10 chapters (March 13)

Currently reading
  • Convenience Store Woman – Murata Sayaka (Tr. Ginny Tapley Takemori)

Currently writing
  • The pulse beneath (Khemjira fic) - 2/8 chapters (it has a title and I've posted those two chapters!)
Currently playing
  • My Burning Heart (Visual Novel) 

Currently watching

Dramas
  • Countdown to Yes (Japanese BL) – Mondays – 9/11 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 9/49 episodes
  • Cosmetic Playlover S2 (Japanese BL) – Thursdays – 8/10 episodes
  • Cat for Cash (Thai BL) – Tuesdays – 8/10 episodes
  • My Romance Scammer (Thai BL) – Sundays – 7/12 episodes
  • Only Friends: Dream On (Thai BL) – Fridays – 3/12 episodes
  • The Pitt S1 (US drama) – No schedule – 3/15 episodes
  • Hard Nights (Thai drama) – No schedule – 3/16 episodes

Anime
  • Isekai Office Worker: The Other World’s Books Depend on the Bean Counter – Tuesdays – 10/12 episodes

On hold

Books
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes
Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes
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It's been a while since my last update, but I just haven't been in the mood to sit down and write anything that isn't my fic. I still haven't finished it, but I posted the first chapter last week, and somehow my brain feels like I can finally do other things now. Brains...

I've also had a couple of busy weekends. Two weeks ago, I went to the Chinese Embassy's New Year event in the capital, and this past weekend I volunteered at Citrus Con. Oh, and both my computer and the kid's died. Mine could be saved, fortunately... which is why I'm writing this now.

Anyway, I'm alive and hopefully I'll be able to post a proper update soon :)


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feeling human can be so hard sometimes
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I fully intended to write this yesterday, but the truth is, my Friday and Saturday were busy for various reasons, and yesterday, on top of making sure the kid did his assigned chores, folding the clean laundry I washed on Friday, and *not* making the grocery list because, for some reason, it's one of the most overwhelming tasks in the world for me... I've even thought of sophisticated solutions, like having a pre-made list just to track when to order what, but I never make it. At one point I even thought about designing an app (back when I was taking a Google UX course that the company I work for made us take, but that no one ever finished, myself included). But anyway, I'm getting off track. In the end, I caught up with Dare You to Death, watched the first episode of the second season of Cosmetic Playlover, and watched two more episodes of KinnPorsche.

I started two new Japanese BLs and an anime at some point during the week. Oops.

This week I also picked up reading Panguan again and I'd like to just keep reading instead of adulting, but that’s not possible. I'm behind on the Read Along, but it's fine. Reading the other people's posts motivates me, but I don't see it as a competition. I hope that after finishing that book, I can move on to the others I started last year. Also, I started another book that's not a webnovel or danmei: Convenience Store Woman by Murata Sayaka. There's another book of hers I want to read, Vanishing World, but that will be later, later, once I've finished more of the books I already have lined up.

I also wanted to edit my WIP, but again, just seeing the document overwhelmed me and I suddenly felt it would be better to make some progress on what I haven't finished writing yet, but in my notebook, and maybe that will help a bit. But it wasn't a particularly productive day. I also won't write much today about everything I'm watching, because, well, I'm not really in the mood.

Finished watching
  • Me and Thee (Thai BL) – 10 episodes

Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 48
  • Convenience Store Woman - just started it, it’s short and I hope I can read it when I finish reading Panguan and before resuming Counterattack or SVSSS

Currently watching


Dramas
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 11/12 episodes
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 11/13 episodes
  • Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 7/10 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 7/49 episodes
  • KinnPorsche (Thai BL) – No Schedule – 6/14 episodes
  • Dare You To Death (Thai BL) – Thursdays – 4/10 episodes
  • Countdown to Yes (Japanese BL) – Mondays – 1/10 episodes
  • Cosmetic Playlover (Japanese BL) – Thursdays – 1/10 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Reality show
  • DMD Friendship Reality, the Third Chapter – it was on Sundays but now it changed to Friday... why??? – 5/6 episodes

Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime
  • Isekai Office Worker: The Other World’s Books Depend on the Bean Counter – Tuesdays – 2/12 episodes
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

On hold

Anime
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

Finished watching

Me and Thee. It's over. The finale was on Saturday. I watched it with a local group of BL fans in a small private room with a huge cinema-like screen and snacks. It was nice, but this time there wasn't much mingling among the attendees. I went alone, and there were several others who also came alone, but there were also friend groups. But I don't know, haha. I think a lot of us are equally introverted. Anyway, it was fun; the vibe is different from watching it alone in your living room or bedroom. At least the laughter was shared. The final episode was charming and really fun, very fitting for the series' overall tone, and I think the previous episode, which I had a lot of comments about, follows that same dynamic. In the end, I do think the way GMMTV series structure their stories could be improved, but this show was quite satisfying even with its flaws.
 
I admit I fell in love with Pond's character and that's what made me look forward to each new episode. I loved how he was completely clueless at first about how to be a normal human being, how his personality was basically just memorizing lines from his favorite lakorns, or how he tried to figure out what people assume is the norm without really understanding (or understanding at all) why, and then having to get explanations about it from others… I wonder why I liked that character so much, I can't think of a reason, hahaha.

Also, I don't know if it's because I've gotten used to the style of Thai series or because I knew it was deliberately over-the-top since it's inspired by lakorns (and well, it reminds me of the melodrama of Mexican telenovelas), but I really enjoyed the humor and just went along for the ride. In the end, I enjoyed the weekly wait and every week it managed to make me laugh, and that's something I really value these days. Do I recommend it? Yes, but to a specific audience that doesn't expect a complex plot and can overlook its narrative weaknesses, or that's looking for something written with more intricacy. I think to fully enjoy it, you have to be in a particular mood and just join in on the joke, you know? The post-credit scenes in the finale were hilarious. Also, I don't know, I guess my personal policy of not having high expectations helped a lot (not always, as you can see from my comments on other series recently… it's not about having no preferences or refusing to admit when something is driving me crazy either).


Currently watching


Interminable. I'll talk about this in detail after it ends, but it's been quite disappointing. The things that initially caught my interest in the plot haven't been enough, but I guess I've stayed because of the sunk cost fallacy or something… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Goddess Bless You From Death. I love that there really hasn't been a single episode where something didn't happen that scared me. I think this is my precise dose of horror.

Burnout Syndrome. It's so intense, so intense. I love it. This week's episode was very powerful. Three red flags reflecting different facets of humanity today, portrayed in a story you can't look away from. The colors, the symbolism, even when the characters make direct allusions to what the allegory is criticizing. I don't know, I like it a lot, a lot. And I wonder how it's going to end.

The Long Ballad. I don't have much to say yet, but I really like Changge.

KinnPorsche. Up until now I'd been watching roughly one episode a week, but yesterday I watched two. I think I've reached that point in the series where I need to keep watching. It's a shame today is Monday and work gets in the way of me and my hobbies. Yesterday I watched the episode where Kinn and Porsche are handcuffed together and have to survive in the forest; it was a very fun episode for me.

That's it for now. I wrote this in the morning, but then I started my day properly and didn't have time to post it. I hope it's readable. I'll edit the tags... later...


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This is a placeholder and a reminder to write some of the things I've been reflecting on during these months I've been writing my Khemjira fic. There are so many thoughts... 
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There aren’t many currently airing shows I’m interested in, so I’m focusing on slowly returning to the ones I left unfinished before 2025 ended. I also want to try watching shorter Korean and Japanese shows before the flood of new releases starts again.

I want to avoid feeling overwhelmed, and I also want to read more… as much as my brain allows. Sometimes it just refuses, and if I force myself, I end up feeling demand-avoidant, which isn’t useful at all.

I’ve also started tracking the fics I’m reading, because why not? Let’s see if my OCD doesn’t take over, hahaha. I hope I can keep it under control.

Now, let’s see the update.


Finished watching
  • Peach Trap (Korean BL) – No Schedule – 8 episodes
  • Love begins in the World of If (Japanese BL) – No Schedule – 6 episodes

Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 41 (slow progress is still progress)

Currently watching

Dramas
  • Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 9/10 episodes
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 10/11 (12?) episodes
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 10/13 episodes
  • Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 6/10 episodes
  • Dare You To Death (Thai BL) – Thursdays – 2/10 episodes
  • KinnPorsche (Thai BL) – No Schedule – 4/14 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 6/49 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Reality show
  • DMD Friendship Reality, the Third Chapter – Sundays – 4/6 episodes

Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

On hold

Anime
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes


Finished watching

Peach Trap. A cute boy is fired unjustly from his job, and then we learn there are three guys interested in him. They start actively pursuing him, and that’s it. It was short, which is why I decided to give it a try, but I didn't like it in the end. At first it looked cute and some parts really were, but the protagonist didn't have a personality… his entire character was just that the three guys liked him. It reminded me a bit of Secret Relationships (only a bit, because of the 3:1 situation), but in that show the protagonist at least had something interesting going on inside his head and I enjoyed the toxicity and unhingedness. Here, the protagonist just seemed to be a cutie, but nothing else. Maybe I’m too picky now, or maybe I wasn’t in the mood for a fluffy substanceless show… I don’t know. I think what frustrated me most is that I didn’t even find it that entertaining. I’ve watched mid shows lately, but this one felt a bit like a chore at times, and that’s with only eight short episodes. So yeah…

Love Begins in the World of If. It's about an office worker who finds it difficult to fit into his new role, even a year after being transferred to the sales department. He finds a mysterious mirror in a shrine that helps him see his “ideal self” and transports him to a different world. The first episode is very gloomy and incredibly relatable, so of course I wanted to see where it was going… and I ended up enjoying it so much. It’s also incredibly bingeable, with only six episodes of about half an hour each.

I love Japanese BL stories about sad office workers who find love, stories that feel deeply familiar. This one really hits on the theme of asking for help and not closing yourself off, plus the idea that your attitude toward the world fundamentally shapes how you see everything and even how others treat you. I know because I talked about this exact thing in therapy not long ago, and how frustrating it is that it’s actually true. I liked this one A LOT.


Currently watching

Me and Thee. This episode was my least favorite, and it highlights an issue I have with a lot of Thai shows: they rush things in a way where the ending is emotionally satisfying, but not necessarily in a narratively coherent way… The conflicts that seemed so important in previous episodes get resolved too easily, making them feel gratuitous in the first place. There’s also the issue of wanting to include many plot points without having enough runtime to really develop and resolve them without rushing. It happened with My Magic Prophecy too, and I find it frustrating.
Now I’m curious about the novel it’s based on, to see if it’s a source material issue or an adaptation issue.

That being said, I still enjoyed it, I still adore Thee, and I definitely liked it a lot more than MMP… But I don’t know, I don’t know… Most of the GMMTV shows I’ve watched lately have this issue, and I think the screenwriters really need to take a different approach, but let’s be honest, I don’t think that will happen. Again, maybe I'm just becoming too picky. Maybe the really good, well-written shows I’ve watched have spoiled me. Who knows…

Interminable. No, at this point I’m just watching because there’s only one episode (and the special episode) left, but oh gods… the pacing for this show is awful. Too slow, and things barely happened. The political intrigue wasn’t really mentioned in this episode… 

The story had the potential of being interesting, and I wanted to know how things ended for the protagonists in their first life, and how they would end up being together with the issue of one of them being a ghost in the present, but it really felt like it dragged too much. There were interesting conflicts that could have been explored in more detail, like the class one as an obstacle between Khun Yai and Kaewta. I don’t love the evil and possessive not-sister either, sigh. And now I have a feeling that the ending is going to be rushed and unsatisfying…

Again, Billy and Babe were so pretty in this, but agh. And I really want to know, just as with Me and Thee, if it’s a source material issue or an adaptation issue. But I don’t want to start new books before finishing Panguan and SVSSS and Counterattack ToT, so we’ll see.

Goddess Bless You From Death. I don’t have much to say this week about this one. I’m still enjoying it, it’s still scary at times, and the resolutions are close, I can feel it. I’ve seen people complain about the incompetent police and how inefficient the investigations and procedures seem, and I’m here, thinking in mexican: lolololol. The police is efficient somewhere? That sounds fake, but sure. 

Burnout Syndrome. I am loving how fucked up the relationships in this one are. I enjoy every time the characters make terrible decisions, and all the thoughts and feelings it leaves me with. All the conversations about art, all the symbolism… It’s the artsy thing I’ve always been drawn to, honestly.

I love the intensity and the frustration the characters face. And visually, it’s just gorgeous. Really, I just hope the resolution isn’t too simplistic, though… please, let the resolution to the conflicts be satisfying and complex.

Dare You To Death. I skipped this week’s episode. I don’t know if I want to catch up lol.

KinnPorsche.
Slowly making progress. I can see why it’s a favorite of the Thai BL fandom. So far, I’ve liked it, and I think it’s going to be among my favorites, too.

The Long Ballad. We’re back, baby!

Runaway.
No progress, but I really need to make an effort to watch during the day so the ghosts (no matter how fake they look) don’t end up haunting my nights.
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First update of the year because I still have free time before going back to work on Monday ToT

Finished watching
  • Last Samurai Standing (Japanese drama) – 6 episodes


Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 40


Currently watching

Dramas
  • Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 8/10 episodes
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 9/11 (12?) episodes
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 9/13 episodes
  • Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 5/10 episodes
  • Dare You To Death (Thai BL) – Thursdays – 2/10 episodes
  • KinnPorsche (Thai BL) – No Schedule – 3/14 episodes
  • Peach Trap (Korean BL) – No Schedule – 3/8 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

Reality show
  • DMD Friendship Reality, the Third Chapter – No schedule – 2/10 episodes


On hold

Anime
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Yesterday, I watched Last Samurai Standing with a friend who doesn’t watch BL or isn't very online. We were hanging out, he suggested we watch something, and we did that thing where we don’t know what to choose for, like, 15 minutes. Then he chose that, I approved, and that’s how we spent the rest of the day. There were samurai, sangre y muerte, things I enjoy a lot, so I had a good time. It was only six episodes but ended on a cliffhanger, with the promise of a second season. I groaned out loud. But I had fun. It’s fun watching things with friends. This friend is very patient with me when I yell at the screen or laugh maniacally. Also, this was the first completed drama (season 1, ugh) on my updated 2026 spreadsheet.

Today I did laundry and went to therapy. It was an interesting session after the holidays and some things that happened during Christmas at my parents’ house, so I was out of it for a bit. Afterwards, I watched my weekly comfort show, Me and Thee, and I laughed, but I cried a little too. I realized I LOVE when Thee smiles besottedly every time Peach says or does something. I think I like that expression Pond makes; it’s incredibly endearing and cute. I also feel like the next episode will reach full tension with all the mafia family stuff and them being forbidden to have a relationship. Only two more episodes, and I’ll watch the finale at an event with other local fans. I hope I don’t ugly cry in public, and if I do, I hope everyone else does too :D 

Then, today, after eating, I started watching Peach Trap. I watched three episodes today. There’s one cutie and three potential suitors, and all I could think was: let him have his harem! But, even without knowing anything else, I know that won’t happen. Anyway, it’s short and it’s kind of cute so far. We’ll see what shenanigans they deliver.

I also watched episode 9 of Interminable, and so many things happened. It’s episode 8/11… or 12, according to a post I saw elsewhere, where Idol Factory announced the number of episodes went from 11 to 12. From what I understood, it was supposed to be 11 episodes + 1 special episode. Anyway, the post said the change was made to ensure the story is “continuous and as complete as possible” or something like that. Regardless, the political intrigue made the episode interesting, and I’m curious to read about that era and the real political conflicts. I’m also curious to know how they’re going to resolve the rest of the story because I feel so much needs to happen for a happy ending. I feel like it took a bit too long for this story to feel like something was really happening, but maybe it will make more sense later?

And that’s it. I’m planning how to organize my time to watch some of the shows I have on hold. I’m not starting this year with a clean slate (regarding my watching list, lol): I have 15 things I started last year (some of them On hold). One I really want to resume watching is The Long Ballad. I’m not sure what shows are airing soon, and I’m not sure if this year I want to keep watching so many currently airing shows. I kind of want to explore older shows, and not just BL, so I need to be more mindful. I think I managed fine last year, not trying to watch everything, and trying to choose the ones that interested me the most.

I wanted to make a dent in my watchlist during winter break, but as I said in the last 2025 update, it’s always a bit busy. I also spent a significant amount of time working on my Khemjira fic. I spent almost the entirety of the first day of this year writing that fic, editing some stuff I transcribed from my handwritten notes, and adding notes for things I want to write later. It’s been so much fun, but I’ve been in a frenzied state I don’t think I’ve ever experienced before. I want to find a beta reader at some point, but I want to finish it first because, somehow, showing something unfinished to someone—and the idea of receiving feedback (either positive or negative) or generating some kind of expectation—makes me very anxious. But the thing is that it keeps growing. When I started writing a couple of months ago, I took my notebook and wrote a lot of fragments from different points in the story as I started watching it inside my head. I saw it happen like a movie, and translating all those images to words has proven to be hard, fun, but hard. It takes so much time to find the exact way I want to describe what my mind’s eye is seeing happen, and sometimes I think the result isn’t satisfying, but I lack the expressivity or the techniques. After all, I’m not an experienced writer or anything, not even as a hobbyist. And my work as an editor is for educational things: textbooks, interactive material for college students… anyway. I’m not looking forward to Monday; I’m gonna miss being a little feral over this story that started as an innocent idea for a sex pollen fic that then came to life on its own.

All this said, I don’t know when my next update will be. I can’t promise consistency because I don’t know how busy I’m gonna be, especially since I have some plans I cannot talk about. Maybe I don’t believe in any religion or specific spiritual things, but I am very superstitious about sharing stuff I’m excited about because I have jinxed myself more than once.

So, see you soon… at some point.
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Final update of the year, on the very last day of the year (where I’m from… I know it’s already 2026 in the other half of the world, but whatever).

This sure has been… a year… and I don’t want a repeat. Not that it’s possible, but you know what I mean. Here’s to better things in 2026: fewer shitty non-curses, fewer mental breakdowns, less poverty, more joy.

I can say that besides my kid’s existence and needs (and not wanting to traumatize him further), this ridiculous endeavor of mine to watch as many BL dramas as possible is one of the things that has kept me alive this year. And for that… I don’t know if I should say I’m grateful, but here I am… for better or worse.

I want to apologize for being a dark presence instead of a ray of sunshine or hope. I’m really sorry if I made you feel down or sad at any point this year with my stories or whatever. I’m only human, and sometimes I need to let things out or I’m at risk of exploding, iykwim.

Anywaaaaaaaay, the update:


Finished watching

Dramas
  • Me and Who (Thai BL) – 10 episodes
  • Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – 8 episodes
  • ClaireBell (Thai GL) – 8 episodes
  • Thundercloud Rainstorm (Korean BL) – 8 episodes
  • Heated Rivalry (Canadian mini series) – 6 episodes
  • School Trip: Joined a Group I’m Not Close to (Japanese BL) –  10 episodes
  • Love Sea: The Home for Lovers (Japanese BL) – 12 episodes
Movies
  • 10Dance (Japanese film)
  • Dangerous Drugs of Sex (Japanese film) 

Currently writing
  • Khemjira Fic - 5795 words (Whaaaaaat???!!!)
  • Secret omegaverse story - 1578

Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 40

Currently watching

Dramas
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 9/13 episodes
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 8/11 episodes
  • Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 7/10 episodes
  • Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 5/10 episodes
  • KinnPorsche (Thai BL) – No Schedule – 3/14 episodes
  • Dare You To Death (Thai BL) – Thursdays – 2/10 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

Reality show
  • DMD Friendship Reality, the Third Chapter – No schedule – 2/10 episodes

On hold

Anime
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

It’s been a month since the last update, and I’ve finished a lot of shows… partly taking advantage of my free time (winter break at my job; working for a “university” has its hidden blessings). That helped, and I wanted to watch more, but these are busy days and everybody seems to want to hang out, so it hasn’t been possible.

I’ve also been writing, and feeling down or overwhelmed, depending on my hormones, the weather, or my family… you know how it is. December is an overwhelming month. I don’t like it that much, honestly, but what am I gonna do? I really can’t just hibernate, as much as I’d love to… lol.

Anyway, I’m going to try to be brief, or I won’t finish this today.

First of all, the ones I finished:

Me and Who. This one was so fun and sweet. I honestly had a great time watching it week to week, even though some things really didn’t make sense or lacked explanation… and I love knowing everything. I really wanted to know about Ya’s family mind reading ability, for example. I also liked BigPark’s chemistry; they’re adorable and sweet, and now I want to watch Monster Next Door thanks to them. Also, I don’t know if lately I’ve just been in the mood for silly and sweet or what, because usually I’m more inclined toward plot heavy or darker stories, but I’ve been enjoying the silliness and the romance, despite being very averse to it irl :D

Mystique in the Mirror. This one kept me intrigued from start to end. I really didn’t want to venture too many theories about what was really going on, but I suspected it, and in the end I cried. It was good, and I liked it a lot despite a few things that felt a bit unnecessary (like the second couple… don’t get me wrong, they were kind of sweet, but I didn’t feel like their romance added something to the main story, and it took me out of it sometimes). I really don’t want to go into much detail because almost everything can qualify as a spoiler for this one. Just, if you are too sensitive to mental illness and death, maybe stay away.

ClaireBell. This is officially the first GL I’ve ever watched, and it became one of my favorite dramas of this year! Now I really want to explore more GLs, so I’ll take recommendations. I loved so many aspects of this one. For starters, that it’s set in prison, which meant there was going to be violence, sadness, injustice, and morally questionable characters… and it didn’t disappoint. A surprise was seeing Pond Ponlawit in it; he’s an actor I’ve come to admire this year after watching Reset. But I’m digressing. I really enjoyed seeing the characters develop, not just Claire and Bell. I loved seeing their stories and their evolution. I also loved the mix of sweetness and sadness in Claire and Bell’s relationship. Of course I cried a couple of times, and not just for them. Another aspect I really liked was the cinematography. I don’t know, I just enjoyed it so much. These women are incredibly talented. As an aside, I randomly discovered that Farida (Duen) speaks a little Spanish, and she seems like such a sweet girl.

Thundercloud Rainstorm. I enjoyed the first half more, where it was messier, angstier, and darker. Not that it became incredibly fluffy in the second half or anything, but the mood kind of switched a bit. But I like it overall.

Heated Rivalry. I almost don’t want to mention it because this one seems to be starting to divide opinions, and not in a good way, but I enjoyed it a lot. I said on fedi that maybe I feel like if I weren’t as horny as I am (horny not as a transitory state but as an inherent quality of my being) and if I hadn’t read so much horny fanfiction over the years, I wouldn’t have enjoyed it as much as I did… It made me feel things, and I always appreciate that. Do I think of it as groundbreaking? Not really, no. But I see why some people are so marveled by it, being their first contact with a certain kind of story… Maybe a couple of years ago, before I delved into Asian BL, my reaction would have been different (like many other people who mostly watch Western dramas), or maybe I would have avoided it because anything that’s highly hyped makes me almost immediately not want to watch it (see GoT, Stranger Things… etc.). Anyway, I liked it. I enjoyed it. I get why people don’t.

School Trip: Joined a Group I’m Not Close to. It was sweet, cute, charming, and I adored every bit of it. It very much reminded me of My Love Mix-Up and I Cannot Reach You. I loved Watarai and Hioki so much. I still need to watch the special episode, but I suppose that will have to wait until 2026 :D I mentioned this as the sweetest romance I watched this year in the End of the Year Challenge over on fedi.

Love Sea: The Home for Lovers. This one is an adaptation of a Thai series. It’s written by MAME, and I haven’t watched the original, but judging by the comments, I don’t know if I’m going to. I enjoyed this one. I don’t know if I could endure 10 episodes of that plot but twice as long. The NC scenes were good, too, imo.

10Dance.  Edited the post because how did I forget this one? I watched it the day it came out. There was so much hype around it, but as always, I tried to keep my expectations low. I enjoyed it… it’s visually stunning, and the dances are mesmerizing. Also, Machida Keita. The thing is, the source material (the manga it’s adapted from) is still ongoing, so this story felt a bit incomplete. I liked the way they ended it, but the competition mentioned in the title (the 10 dance didn’t happen in the movie. So I don’t know; maybe they’re planning to wait for the manga to finish to adapt a sequel? Another thing that left me with a weird aftertaste was the romanticization of Latin America, especially as a Latin American.

Dangerous Drugs of Sex. I watched this because one of my mutuals elsewhere mentioned they’d seen it and listed the trigger warnings, so of course I was going to give it a try: very toxic, very graphic, non-con, kidnapping, captivity, bondage, manipulation, psychological torture, grief, trauma, suicidal ideation… I liked it. A lot. It helped me get out of a very dark mood yesterday, and I don’t know what that says about me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯


Now the ones I’m watching:

Goddess Bless You From Death. I like this one. It has been consistently spooky. Right now I’m a bit confused by the plot, but I’m just going with the flow, waiting for events to be explained at some point (not trying too hard to come up with theories) and enjoying the supernatural elements. That’s still my favorite part. I’m having a lot of fun.

Interminable. I keep watching, but it’s very slow. Very. Sometimes it feels like a chore. There are three episodes left, so I’m gonna finish it, but I didn’t think it would live up to its name ToT Billy and Babe are gorgeous in it, though.

Me and Thee. I adore it. I love Theerakit Kian Lee with all my heart. He’s so extra and so out there. And it’s so funny. I laugh a lot, but it’s had very sweet moments too. It genuinely makes me so happy, and I look forward to every episode each week.

Burnout Syndrome. I’m enjoying this one very much. Every single episode makes me feel a lot of things, and it’s visually beautiful, very artsy. And goddammit, I wish they would give us DewGun for real and not just tease us with it. It’s like they’re edging us, but the frustrating part is that there will be no reward, you know? I know it in my bones. I’m still loving it. I’ve seen people who struggle with it because they don’t feel like they can root for any of the characters, and I get it… but that’s precisely the kind of story that makes me go feral. I’ve also seen people say they won’t like it if they redeem Koh (Off’s character), but I have a whole lot to say about that tendency to hate when they forgive characters in Asian dramas : ) Not here, though… somewhere, someday…

KinnPorsche. I finally started watching it. I’ve only watched three episodes since I wanted to finish the Japanese dramas before the year ended. I watched the first one very drunk, while drinking a lot of water, trying to get less drunk before going to bed to avoid a disaster. And I enjoyed it. I remember I tried to watch it even before I watched The Untamed. I got a monthly subscription to iQIYI and was exploring the options without really knowing much about Thai BL, but I wasn’t ready. Now I’ve watched Shine (one of my favorite dramas of this year) and Man Suang (back then I didn’t know who Mile or Apo were, so I went in blind, and I don’t remember much of it), so I thought it would be a good idea to watch this classic of Thai BL, and I’m enjoying it. If I have the mental energy, maybe I can finish it this week, before going back to work next Monday.

Dare You To Death.
It’s not good so far. We’ll see if I finish it or drop it. It’s a shame because I’m fond of JoongDunk, but it’s just not doing it for me.

Runaway. Need to get back to this one. But maybe I’m going to restart it.

Ah, yes. I'm also watching a reality show... DMD Friendship The Third Chapter. I'm rooting for my adopted son, Pung Phirunwat. Also, now all the other boys are my nephews, except Porsche Sitha, who can be my compadre. 

Look, my list isn’t very long now, and I’m very proud of myself, but I don’t know how long I’ll resist before adding a ton more shows to watch lol. I want to watch more older shows and shows from different countries, like the Philippines or Vietnam. I also want to get back to the ones I have on hold. And watch more anime, and write more, and and and… I don’t do New Year’s resolutions; I just try to do my best and all that.

If 2025 was a shitty year for you, I hope 2026 is better.

See you on the other side, with more updates… at some point.


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Meme stolen from [personal profile] shipperslist  :D

a song you discovered this month

Feel Good - Charlotte Cardin

Just today, to be precise. Someone showed it to me in one of those "choose a number and I'll give you a song from my most played of this year" games


 

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The year is coming to an end and I'm... distressed. The christmas stuff is overwhelming and stressful, there are two events at work, and there's also the lack of sunlight (not extreme like the far north, but my body and my brain still resent it). I need to go and sit under the sun for five minutes periodically, and keep drinking warm water to be at least a little bit warm. And I wish every day I could just hibernate and wake up when there's a bit more sunlight. Gosh, I wish I could live in a place where the weather is always mild, or be able to migrate south for the winter, like a bird. Anyway, here’s my update. 


Finished watching

Dramas
  • Zomvivor (Thai Drama) – 7 episodes
  • The Cursed Love (Thai BL) – 10 episodes
  • Punks Triangle (Japanese BL) – 8 episodes
  • The Wicked Game (Thai BL) – 10 episodes

Currently writing
  • Khemjira Fic - 4016 words
  • Secret omegaverse story - 1578

Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 31

Currently watching
Dramas
  • Me and Who (Thai BL) – Fridays – 8/10 episodes
  • Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 6/8 episodes
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 5/13 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – Tuesdays – 2/8 episodes
  • ClaireBell (Thai GL) – Saturdays – 4/8 episodes
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 4/11 episodes
  • Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 3/10 episodes
  • Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 1/10 episodes
  • Thundercloud Rainstorm (Korean BL) – Fridays – 2/8 episodes
  • Heated Rivalry (Canadian mini series) – Fridays (?) – 1/6 episodes

Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

On Hold

Anime
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Last time I posted an update, I wrote this: “As expected, I've started watching a ton of things again.” And guess what? Well, you can probably guess.

Okay, but first, let’s talk about the things I finished watching:

Zomvivor: I admit most of the characters were a bit exasperating most of the time, but I don’t know… I feel like I’ve become more and more forgiving. I ended up liking the show, and now that there seem to be plans for a second season, I’m curious. I saw many folks were pissed about the ending, but I wasn't. First of all, because I’ve never hated open endings; they’ve been part of my media diet growing up, so they don’t bother me at all. Second, to me, it’s clear they planned to continue the story. Third, even though I can seem full of rage about some stuff, there are things I just can’t be mad about because anger is very energy-consuming, and nowadays I try to be more conscious about what I spend my energy on. Anyway, if there’s really a second season, hopefully we won’t have to wait as many years as people waited for this one.

The Cursed Love: At times it was a bit of a chore to keep watching, but there were enough elements to keep me curious. Sadly, the script was also a bit messy and felt very incomplete somehow. I kinda liked the ending because I’m a sucker for that kind of finale, though.

Spoilers ahead, in case anyone here cares lol

I liked that Siwat ended up dying because it fit the title of the show. I assume the new guy with Siwat's face who showed up at the end is going to be some sort of reincarnation? No idea how, but who are very physically alike do exist, so maybe his soul just chose a new vessel who looks a lot like his past incarnation? I don’t even know. I usually like to think about what could happen post-canon, and if I were more invested in this story, I would even try to write (or think about) a fic, but alas. I usually like endings where everybody dies, but one of the deaths here felt pointless and undeserved.



And, not gonna lie, the whole time I kept thinking: “this is a situation that polyamory would solve… whatever these three have going on.” But I know asking for a poly BL might be a bit much still. That reminds me that I want to watch Two Husbands One Wife and Three Will Be Free. But going back to this show: it was an interesting premise, but the execution could have been much better. The actor who played Siwat was very pretty.

Punks Triangle: I ended up bingeing episodes 1-7 last Sunday when existential dread attacked again, and it was fun and cute. I really appreciate Japanese BLs; they have a very particular vibe I like a lot. And I really need to watch more of them. According to MDL, where I’ve tracked all the Japanese BLs I’ve seen, I’ve only watched 23. That’s kinda outrageous. But talking specifically about this one, I really liked the struggles of the protagonists, each with their own insecurities and their craving for connection. It has some very sexy moments that made me blush even though they’re not explicit at all. I love when a series does that with an ear touch or... fingers in a mouth. I am a sucker (lol) for fingers in mouth scenes. It makes me think of Old Fashion Cupcake and My Personal Weatherman off the top of my head… anyway, I liked this one.

The Wicked Game: I’ve talked about my philosophy of not having high expectations, and how it saves me from big disappointments, right? Well, it helped a lot in this case. I admit I enjoyed it; it was fun and unhinged, and very telenovelesca, but I kinda wanted it to go the dark route.

Spoilers ahead
It gave me Risa as the winner of the wicked game (sorry, sorry), but very briefly. For a moment, I thought Chet and Peem were both dead, but since we never saw Peem’s corpse, I knew he wasn’t, and that was what disappointed me. Another disappointing thing was that they didn’t give us even a little kiss between Chet and Park, but I’m letting that one slide because Park ended up being killed by Risa’s bodyguard after he killed Risa, and that kind of devotion is also very sexy, so… yeah. Again, I like “everyone dies” finales, and I kinda wanted this one to be like that… better luck next time, I guess. In the end, Than inherited everything Peem left him after faking his death, and then Peem came back with a new name to start over. I just hope Than doesn’t insist on going back to being a cop, because ew, dude. He can clean his name, and then maybe open a restaurant. I don’t know.


I enjoyed it overall, but yeah, I wanted it to be darker than it was. But again, I’m not really mad.

I'm not gonna talk about every show I’m watching or I’ll never end this update.

I keep enjoying Me and Thee. It makes me laugh a lot, but it has tender moments too. I immediately adopted Theerakit Kian Lee. He’s my adopted son now. I just love how over the top and socially awkward he is. I love the patience Peach has for him, and how Thee is learning how to behave like a normal person lol. Some of his behavior reminds me of myself, and maybe that’s one of the reasons I immediately fell in love with him: he memorizes the lines of his favorite shows and uses them as his own lines in everyday life, and he needs to be told about some very basic stuff that people take for granted because he genuinely doesn’t understand. Yeah… Anyway, it’s been a delight, and I look forward to every new episode.

I haven’t watched this week’s episode of ClaireBell because I was busy yesterday, and today I was very out of it—very distracted and unable to pay attention to anything—so I really didn’t watch anything today. But this one is so good (I hope episode 5 is good too). It makes my heart ache, but I like how this couple of girls have found each other in such a dark and terrible place. I’m sure things are gonna be a bit dark/violent in the next episodes, but that’s very fitting.

I started THREE new shows this week, so my watching list remains the same :) I don’t learn, but I don’t care. One of the things that keeps me interested in living are my little shows, so I’ll take it for as long as I can. The other big motive to stay alive is the kid, but as I’ve never been the ideal selfless parent, I need selfish motives too… things for myself only. Don’t judge me too harshly for this; we hold onto what we can.

I started Burnout Syndrome because when I watched the pilot trailer last year, it was one of the few that made me perk my ears up and go "wow, wow." The first episode was such a strong start. Jira (Gun Atthaphan) is an artist who struggles with being unemployed; he’s burnt out, or at least that’s what they’re calling it (he seems very depressed, I mean… it’s part of it too), and he’s also very broke. So yeah, yeah… been there, very relatable. He goes to an interview and the person interviewing him keeps asking if he knows how to use “AI”, and when he says he would prefer not to, the woman confronts him because his resume says he’s adaptable. That also felt like a punch in the gut, because those same words have been used against me in very similar circumstances regarding “AI” too. Then, Ing, his friend, sends him to a bar “to heal,” and he ends up meeting Pheem (Dew Jirawat). Later, Ing also gets him a companionship gig that goes wrong, and there he meets Koh (Off Jumpol), who ends up hiring him as a companion (different guy from the failed gig). It’s going to be messy, or at least it seems like it, but gosh… the colors, the music, the whole mood were exquisite. I also like how they incorporate the art in the episode. They hired an artist, and I think I fell in love with her art. If she ever sells prints, I’d love to buy one (or more). It’s very sensual art. This is her account: naisu.chirat

The other show I started is a Korean BL called Thundercloud Rainstorm. Discord pals lured me in with talk of a “toxic, incestuous relationship, and very sexy.” Of course, I had to give it a chance. I liked the first two episodes. It’s going to be short; we’ll see how it goes.

Lastly, also thanks to the Discord pals, I started watching Heated Rivalry. This one is Canadian. It’s about two hockey players who are rivals but become fuck buddies, and, if I remember correctly, they also end up falling in love at some point. The first episode was good; very high heat, as the title suggests. I haven’t watched episode 2 because I’ve been struggling a bit this weekend, but I hope to catch up before the next one is released.

From the shows I didn’t go into detail here, I’m just gonna list them in the order I’m enjoying and looking forward to them the most:
  • Me and Who (Thai BL) – This one is so cute and I’m enjoying the main couple a lot.
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – This one keeps being scary. The ghosts have given me jump scares every single episode lol. I’m also enjoying PoohPavel a lot. I like their dynamics, and in the last episode, Singha’s expressions when Thup approached him were chef's kiss.
  • Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – I want to know what’s going ooooooooooooooon!
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – Still feels a bit slow but… butts. They showed unpixelated butts, also… Khun Yai is a menace with no game, and Kaewta is the prettiest.
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – Need to catch up on this one.

The next thing I want to talk about is how I’m enjoying writing my silly fics. But there are two: one is the Khemjira one, and I already have 4k words… I can’t believe it! I may even finish it before the year ends, but I don’t want to be too optimistic or ambitious. Then there’s the other one; it’s my first attempt at writing omegaverse, and even though it started as a way of venting about some corporeal stuff and is planned to mostly be PWP, I got sucked into several worldbuilding rabbit holes. I have been trying to figure out different aspects, like the anatomy I want to give the characters, the fricking scents, the suppressors, how it could affect certain kinds of jobs, etc. And even if I don’t end up integrating it all into the story, it’s interesting because, as a reader, I’ve always let myself be guided by whatever the authors chose to depict, and that was that, because it’s something each author can adapt and play with, so one story doesn’t dictate how others work. But writing is a whole different beast. A fun one, though. For now. I’m exhilarated because it’s been a while since I felt this need to write, so I’m letting myself enjoy it while it lasts. I also have another idea for a third fic, also based on Khemjira, but following a supporting character. It’s been weeks since I had the idea, but I haven’t written anything about it yet, not even the idea as a placeholder in my drafts, but I might need to do it ASAP. Every time I listen to “Ride or Die” by Jeff Satur, it reminds me of the idea, so, yeah…

And that’s it for now.
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I don't think I talked here about the tragic end of my Yuri on Ice embroidery project, but it was mostly because one of my philosophical stances (although it might seem contradictory for someone with OCD… or maybe not) is to not cling to things (nor to people or feelings; it's complicated to explain and it has taken me a lot of time and effort, and I still don't think I've fully mastered it; I'd really have to become an ascetic or something, but that's another topic). This year, the rainy season was intense here in central Mexico: there were floods in other states and also in the north of the state where I live, which left many people with nothing. The humidity in the house where I live was so intense that everything felt constantly damp, and the rains gave us no break to let anything dry. That's what ruined my embroidery, although it wasn't the only casualty: it also affected clothes and some books. But that's how things are when you live in a semi-ruin (the beauties of being poor, huh? At least I didn't lose everything. At least I can sit here and write this today). So, losing a WIP that I had already abandoned due to my internal crises and because sometimes I'm just not in the mood to do certain things (like embroider) didn't seem like a big deal. Of course, I felt a sense of powerlessness, but in the grand scheme of things, it was something easy to let go of, especially when daily life never stops bombarding me with its constant demands and I'm just one person, with limited strength and time... But, anyway, that's what happened: the embroidery was ruined. On to the next thing!

I'm not telling you this so you'll feel pity or sorry for me… it's just… I'm just telling the story, that's all…

Now then, for the other updates.

Currently writing
  • Khemjira Fic - 2510 words

Finished watching
Dramas
  • The Story of Bihyeong (Korean BL) – 12 episodes

Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 30

Currently watching
Dramas
  • Zomvivor (Thai Drama) – No schedule – 6/7 episodes
  • The Wicked Game (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 8/10 episodes
  • Me and Who (Thai BL) – Fridays – 6/10 episodes
  • The Cursed Love (Thai BL) – Wednesdays? – 6/10 episodes
  • Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 4/8 episodes
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 3/13 episodes
  • Runaway (Thai GL) – Tuesdays – 2/8 episodes
  • ClaireBell (Thai GL) – Saturdays – 3/8 episodes
  • Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 2/11 episodes
  • Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 1/10 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 2/4 episodes

On Hold

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12 episodes
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

As expected, I've started watching a ton of things again. But this time I want to at least finish The Bangkok Boy and also watch some classics. I'm determined to finally watch KinnPorsche.

I started Zomvivor on Halloween because of the hype, and so far I've liked it. A lot of people didn't like the ending, but I can't judge yet since I haven't seen it. I think I also got lucky, because I saw that Domundi (if they didn't confirm it) at least hinted that there will be a second season, and I think that was the reason for many people's dissatisfaction: that it ended on a cliffhanger or something like that. It's funny, but last night I watched episode 5 and I dreamed that I was with other people escaping from and killing zombies, but I wasn't scared and I didn't wake up startled. I don't know if I'm becoming desensitized to the horror genre or what… I say this because I'm also watching Goddess Bless You From Death and while I'm watching the episodes, the ghosts don't really scare me that much (even though they’re really creepy); the fear comes later, when I have to go to the bathroom or go downstairs to fill my water bottle in the middle of the darkness (my phone's flashlight doesn't help much) and my very considerate brain visualizes ghosts in the shadows. It's not pleasant.

Speaking of Goddess Bless You From Death, this is the first PoohPavel series I've watched. I tried to watch Pit Babe, but I just couldn't. I started the first episode three times on different occasions and on two of them I fell asleep. The third time I did finish it, but it didn't grab me… oh well. Not everything is for everyone, nor does everything captivate us in the same way. This one, on the contrary, hooked me from the start and keeps me curious. And it does scare me a bit, but not enough to make me stop watching. Also, I think I got a little spoiled when I read a sample of the novel, but I decided to wait to read the whole thing until after I've watched the series. I think that's best, so I won't have too many expectations, haha.

I'm trying (with little success) not to get swept up by fomo, and I'm really not watching anywhere near all the series I'd like to (or that are airing), but that's okay. I've never been shy about being selective, although sometimes I wish I could watch everything just out of curiosity. I guess someday I'll give a chance to several of the things I'm missing out on now, like various currently airing Japanese BLs and some that have already finished, but I'd really rather binge them. I think I'll use part of my winter vacation to do that.

There are two weeks left until the end of The Wicked Game (with DaouOffroad) and it's been a fun experience. Very soap-opera-like, very toxic. It's not my favorite at the moment, but it's very entertaining and it even gave me an idea for a fic. That led me to do research for that fic, and then to an interesting conversation on Fedi, where I discovered that, apparently, if I write it, I'll be able to acquire my "hardcore pervert" status (I love it, I love it; and even though it was all in jest, I would love to claim that badge, hahaha).

The Cursed Love isn't that great either, but it has been entertaining and it made me read a bit about Brahmanism. I find one of the main characters extremely handsome. The premise is interesting, so that keeps me watching.

Me and Who is still fun and adorable, although there are aspects that seem like plot holes, but I feel it's too early to tell, because the story isn't complete yet and it might just be missing information. We'll see. The important thing is that it's one of those series that isn't too intense and that always makes me laugh at some point, which I appreciate.

Mystique in the Mirror is still a mystery, but I already have some theories about what might be going on, and it also keeps me intrigued. I'd also like to read the novel this series is based on, but I'll do it afterwards, so I don't spoil anything for myself. It's not that I'm absolutely against spoilers, but I prefer to wait. I know there are people who don't like reading the source BL Thai novels, but I do; sometimes there are aspects that are explained in more detail in them, especially those related to culture or religion, and I'm a sucker for footnotes.

Another series I started, and one I'd been waiting for since it was announced, is Interminable. It's the second project from BillyBabe as a branded pair, and I loved them in The Sign… This is a story about ghosts, curses, reincarnation, and a main character who is a Thai classical dancer (right now I don't remember the specific type, and if I go look it up, I'll lose the thread of this post). There have only been two episodes so far and they've been a bit slow, but I'm not going to miss every new episode, I’m going to devour them each week. As I've said, that kind of plot really appeals to me, especially because I like seeing the different approaches they take on the theme of karma and reincarnation (not necessarily because I love the idea of fated lovers, in fact, I think that’s the least interesting part for me). Plus, you can tell they invested quite a bit in the production. Just Babe's costumes as a dancer are stunning.

A very notable thing that happened in the last couple of weeks is that I started watching two GL series. The first ones in my life, I think, at least that I remember. I have read sapphic stories, but not in the context of Asian GL series. I started ClaireBell and Runaway. The latter has a premise somewhat similar to Khemjira, at least in the surface: a girl carrying karma from her past life is stalked by a vengeful ghost that wants to kill her when she turns 21, and the daughter of a shaman is the only one who can help her because their karma is intertwined. On the other hand, ClaireBell is set in a prison after the protagonist is accused of drug possession after someone planted them in her bag at a party. This series is really good; it just has me completely hooked, and I love that I followed my instinct and some people's recommendations to start it. I hope it stays that way until the end.

I also started watching Me and Thee and I had a blast; it was a lot of fun. We'll see how it continues.

At some point, I'll get back to Theory of Love and The Long Ballad, but I have a problem and I get easily distracted by new, shiny things. I'm sorry, I'm sorry… really. I also want to finish, at the very least, Sanrio Danshi from my anime list.

I've made a bit of progress with Panguan and I like it very, very much. I want to start participating more over here again, but it requires turning on the laptop and sometimes I just don't have the energy.

Ah, something else that's important, I think, is that I'm writing a Khemjira fic. It's something completely self indulgent, and at first I was a bit embarrassed at the thought of posting it, but then I told myself I could always just not post it, or post it anonymously. It's not even that it's super explicit or anything; I just think it's very cheesy, haha. I mean, the initial idea was a variant of sex pollen but the effects are caused by a cursed object, but the point is that the story appeared in my mind very clearly and one day I just had to start writing and writing, and I'm still writing. Little by little, but I think I'm getting somewhere, and it's fun, although now that I've reached certain explicit scenes (and they're cheesy on top of it, or maybe because of it), it gives me a sort of... I don't know what (cringe?), haha. It's just that I have to visualize certain positions and movements, because sometimes it's funny to read smut and imagine the positions from the descriptions, and sometimes it's just weird, haha. But I'm having a good time. And then, after I finish, will come the task of finding a beta reader… Anyway, anyway. If I don't talk much about it, it's because, even though Khemjira is still very popular (I think), I don't know anyone else besides one other person who is also writing a fic (in my circles, there are lots of people out there writing Khemjira fics)… and sometimes it bums me out not having anyone to talk to about it. Also, when I talk a lot about something I'm doing and people show a lot of enthusiasm, sometimes I feel pressured and lose the desire to continue… I know, I know… living with this brain 24/7 can be a really fun thing (sarcasm).

The post about Khemjira is also a work in progress, but it's just that I'm rewatching the episodes and taking notes. I'm not promising anything, but the intention is there.

And well, that's all for now.
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Finally, a proper update!!


Finished reading

  • Khemjira’s Rescue, by Cali

Finished watching

Dramas
  • Khemjira (Thai BL) - 12 episodes
  • I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - 13 episodes
  • The Journey to Kill You (Japanese BL) - 6 episodes

Movies
  • Dear Dakanda (Thailand, 2005)
  • Love Actually (UK, 2003)
  • Sinners (USA, 2025)
  • The Paradise of Thorns (Thailand, 2024)
  • Frankenstein (USA, 2025)
Reality show
  • DMD Frienship - 6 episodes

Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 22

Currently watching

Dramas
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
  • The Story of Bihyeong (Korean BL) –Thursdays – 10/12 episodes
  • The Wicked Game (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 6/10 episodes
  • Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 2/8 episodes
  • Me and Who (Thai BL) – Fridays – 4/10 episodes
  • Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • The Cursed Love (Thai BL) – No schedule (no idea what days is airing) – 3/10 episodes
  • Zomvivor (Thai drama) – No schedule – 1/7 episodes
  • Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 1/13 episodes
Documentary
  • Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No schedule – 2/4 episodes

On hold

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi– No schedule – 7/12
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12
     
Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

I finished Khemjira on Saturday, October 25th, which means it's been over a week now, and I haven't gotten over it. In fact, I'm trying to write another post just about Khemjira, but it's taking me a bit of time to organize all my thoughts about it because there are so many.

I'm currently watching, once again, several shows that air weekly, and the schedule seems a bit more balanced throughout the week. There are a couple of series that are on hold and that I want to watch, but the thing is, my thoughts are still 80% focused on Khemjira.

On Friday, for example, I started writing down an idea for a fic that had been bouncing around in my head for days. I grabbed a notebook and started writing with a medium point blue Bic pen. I wrote many pages, and now I have to transcribe it, haha. I started doing that yesterday and didn't get very far. Today I've done a few things like laundry and ordering groceries, but I want to make some progress. I have a small problem in that regard, because one part involves some research, but every time I try to do it, I end up reading related things but not directly what I need for the fic. I say it's a problem as if I didn't love doing this, but I admit it doesn't help much with the specific process of writing the fic.

I also finished watching I’m the Most Beautiful Count and The Journey to Killing You. I liked the second one a lot more, although I would have loved to see more of the characters and their internal conflicts.

Normally, I really appreciate how compact Japanese BLs are, telling just what they need to in so few episodes, but sometimes I'm left wanting more. I guess in this case, I'll have to turn to the source material to satisfy that craving.

As for I’m the Most Beautiful Count, I liked it, but I felt it was missing something. The premise is interesting (plus it involves transmigration to a past era) but it's one of those cases where the different elements of the story don't quite come together to form a cohesive whole… I don't know how else to explain it. It was entertaining most of the time, but it was lacking… something, something like a final polish.

Something interesting about most of the series I'm currently watching is that they all have a supernatural, folkloric, or magical element. The Story of Bihyeong is about a dokkaebi and other creatures from Korean folklore; it's a simple but lovely story, I’m having so much fun watching it. Mystique in the Mirror is intriguing because I still don't know if it's a psychological thriller or a supernatural thriller, and I'm very curious. Me and Who is about an ordinary working class guy who, after being hit by a car (or was it a motorcycle? I don’t remember) on a rainy night, transmigrates into a different universe where he's the heir to a very wealthy family and is engaged, and his fiancé in that universe can read minds. The Cursed Love is about past lives, finding an ancient lost city, and powers to control the elements like in Avatar: The Last Airbender. Zomvivor… well, it's in the name, it's about zombies. And Goddess Bless You From Death involves violent crimes, strange rituals and beliefs in ghosts and deities. So it's evident what captures my interest the most these days, but also in general. I guess it's a bit like when I was young and obsessed with vampires.

At some point, I want to pick up The Long Ballad again this week.

Another drama I started and is now a bit on pause is Theory of Love. I started watching this series as part of an exercise proposed by someone in the sphere of mexican Thai BL fans. The person proposed it as a rewatch exercise, but with a twist: before watching each episode, watch the movie that inspired that episode's title. It's designed to watch one movie and one episode per week. I've seen the first two movies (Dear Dakanda and Love Actually), as well as the first two episodes. In my case, it's not a rewatch because I haven't seen the series before. But I have to confess something: based on how the series starts, I find it a bit hard to think of that couple as endgame, so most of the time I'm thinking that the best thing for the protagonist would be to get over his crush and move on with his life, find someone else… It sounds strange, because I think this is the first time this has happened to me since I started watching BL series.

I've watched several series where the couples aren't what I would consider a healthy pair, and some even have very toxic relationships (hahaha, damn, I can visualize certain people judging me for my tastes, even when they're no longer part of my circles, lol). But I don't know, I suppose many of those scenarios are very unrealistic, whereas having a crush on your university friend who doesn't even notice you exist, and who is also an asshole, is very realistic… or maybe not. The exercise initially seemed interesting to me, but when I made the list of movies, I think it didn't really motivate me much either, since almost all of them are romances or romantic comedies, and although I appreciate the genre for what it is and there are even a couple on the list that I genuinely like, the others didn't excite me much, especially since I've already seen many of them. I'm not usually opposed to revisiting movies or series I've already seen because I think distance helps you see them differently, with a different filter, with more baggage, understanding different kinds of references, but in this case, it's just not motivating me much. I'm still thinking about whether to continue or not. The idea excited me at first because I love searching for and learning about the references in works, and also seeing how they relate to each other. It's one of the things I love most about reading, watching series and movies, and listening to music. But well, I don't know. This is the movie list:

  • Dear Dakanda
  • Love Actually
  • Friends with Benefits
  • Crazy Stupid Love
  • 10 Things I Hate About You
  • Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
  • Flipped
  • The Proposal
  • Love Triangle
  • Begin Again
  • He's Just Not That Into You
  • My Dear

Finally, this past week I watched three movies that I liked a lot. Last Sunday I had an invitation to a friend's bridal shower, but I had a fever that, although mild, was definitely going to prevent me from having a good time, so I ended up not going and, instead, watched Sinners with some pals on Discord. I liked it a lot; the music is fantastic.

Later in the week, on Wednesday night, I finally decided to watch The Paradise of Thorns (I didn’t watch it just because Keng Harit and Jeff Satur are in it, I swear), and it left me thinking about many things. Thailand legalized equal marriage last year, but when the movie was made, it hadn't happened yet, and that's one of the points that triggers the whole plot. It impacted me a lot, perhaps because I've lived in poverty for most of my life and, even without fully understanding the characters' specific circumstances, I think it's a movie that reflects the desperation of having nothing very well. There are many layers intertwined in the film, and I think the characters are complex, extremely human. But also, the cinematography is amazing. I liked it a lot, but I admit I suffered. And it's not a movie I would recommend lightly, for example. This film reaffirms my taste for Boss Kuno's work, whom I discovered this year (Gelboys, I Told Sunset About You).

And yesterday, I went with the kid to see Guillermo del Toro's Frankenstein. We went to see it at the movie theater in the local university's cultural complex. It was a great movie. Everything I expected and more. I'm a huge Guillermo del Toro fan. Also, I think Guillermo understands Gothic horror perfectly; the man has been obsessed with that theme forever, and that’s why I love his work too. Of course, I couldn't help but cry at a certain point in the movie, and I felt an enormous, enormous satisfaction when I heard the kid's sobs at that same part. When we left, I apologized for taking him to see a movie that I knew could have that effect on him, but he said no, that he had liked it a lot, and that he especially liked everything it says about what it means to be human. He specifically mentioned two passages: when William asks Victor which part of all the ones that conform a human being contains the soul, and also when Victor says the creature doesn't know the difference between being chained and mistreated, and not being so, and Elizabeth throws it in his face that Victor does know that difference. Afterwards, my son asked me to lend him the novel to read. Mission accomplished.

But if we're honest, watching those three movies in one week is a bit intense. I still have images from all three etched in my mind. But I'm not complaining, because I truly love it when a work leaves a deep impression on me.

Anyway, I'll keep trying to put my thoughts about Khemjira in order, both for the post and for my fic.

I also have to catch up on reading Panguan, and if time allows, maybe even finish Counterattack or SVSSS before the year ends. But I don't want to get ambitious, because I can rarely get things done when I try to bite off more than I can chew.
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This was supposed to be the update of September 25… Ha! It’s been a bit hard to even open my personal laptop, sit and write these little updates. I haven’t had much energy or motivation either, but figured I could write an update today, since my brain isn’t being so mean to me. It’s been hard these past couple of months, but I am not going to talk about it here because it’s dark and scary. I want to talk about it in a different post, because it’s related to one of the shows I’m watching and I think the emotional connection has influenced my obsession (with Khemjira). 

Instead, let’s talk about things that give me joy. At least making a list of what I’ve finished watching.


Finished watching

Dramas
  • 10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – 12 episodes
  • Secret Lover (Taiwanese BL) – 12 episodes
  • Kill to Love (Chinese BL) - 12 episodes
  • Shine (Thai drama) – 8 episodes
  • My Magic Prophecy (Thai BL) – 10 episodes
  • My Stubborn Special Episode (Thai BL) – 2 episodes
  • My Secret Vampire (Korean BL) – 8 episodes
  • Desire (Chinese Omegaverse) – 16 episodes

Anime
  • The Summer Hikaru Died

Movies
  • The Medium (Thailand)
  • Nosferatu (Czech Republic/USA)

    
Currently reading
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 198
  • Panguan - Chapter 18
  • Khemjira’s rescue - Chapter 44

Currently watching

Dramas
  • I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays - 10/13 episodes
  • Khemjira (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays or Sundays - 10/12 episodes
  • The Long Ballad (Chinese drama) - No schedule - 4/49 episodes
  • The Journey to Kill You (Japanese BL) - Fridays - 4/6 episodes
  • The Story of Bihyeong (Korean BL) –Thursdays – 4/12 episodes 



On hold

Anime
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12

Dramas
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

If I find the energy and time to really write my opinions about some of these, I'll post them when I can... 
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I haven't done an update in a while (again) because life has been busy (as always) and, normally, by Sunday night I'm completely exhausted. Sitting down to write can be fun, but it also requires a mental effort that I can't always muster. A few months ago, I was still doing reaction threads on my blorbo account, but I noticed that doing that can make it take me longer to get through an episode. That's why I haven't done it with the series I've watched lately, though I think that has also made me talk a bit less about the things I enjoy.


Since my last update, I've finished watching several series. And I'm watching a lot too... I don't learn, do I?

CURRENTLY MAKING
  • The Yuri on Ice embroidery - Yes, still

FINISHED WATCHING
  • Revenged Love ( Chinese BL) – 24 episodes [August 12]
  • Reset (Thai BL) – 10 episodes [August 22]
  • The Little Red Matchmaker (Chinese drama) – 24 episodes [August 25]
  • The Promise of the Soul (Taiwanese BL) – 12 episodes [September 5]
  • Memoir of Rati (Thai BL) – 12 episodes [September 5]
  • Century of Love (Thai BL) – 10 episodes [September 5]


Revenged Love

It's from China. It caused quite a stir. It's 24 episodes and I had a lot of fun with them. However, there's something that happened in one of the first episodes that almost made me drop it and that still bothers me when I remember it… The thing is, the story is about characters of questionable morality who do dubious things to get what they want, and then there’s chaos, so much. I enjoyed it a lot because the characters are completely unhinged and the actors are very beautiful. Plus, the entanglements between all the characters were delicious to me.




Reset

I started this series out of curiosity because a lot of people liked it. It's about an actor who is murdered and, after dying, wakes up in his body from 20 years ago (I think it’s 25 but I don’t remember and I’m too lazy to check). This gives him the chance to relive his life and correct past mistakes. I found it hilarious that when he woke up in his young body, he was very agitated and would confront people who would harm him in the future as if those things had already happened. I ended up getting hooked because I wanted to know what would happen next, but also because of Pond Ponlawit's precious little face (yes, I’m shallow). I thought it was a pretty entertaining series and I couldn't stop watching it. I finished it in eight days.




The Little Red Matchmaker

I watched this series because I wanted to see Tian Xuning (Chi Cheng in Revenged Love) in another role. The series isn't very good, but I found it entertaining enough to finish. It's about a pair of immortals who face a nine-tailed fox demon. They die in the battle and reincarnate: one as a famous mortal doctor and the other as a matchmaking immortal (I don’t know if I’m making a mistake about the categories of these beings, it’s still a bit confusing). The premise seemed interesting to me, though maybe it could have been a better production. Tian Xuning is very cute in it and he wears a wig… The upside is that its episodes are only about 10 minutes long, so watching it wasn't a huge commitment. I finished it in 10 days.




The Promise of the Soul

This one had a peculiar premise. A grandfather and his grandson die at the same time, but the grandfather's soul is transferred into the grandson's body. Finding himself resurrected in his grandson's body, the grandfather is forced to adopt his identity and, in the process, becomes very close to a guy that the grandson liked (but who didn't like him back). However, it seems the grandson wasn't very well-liked among his peers, and the grandfather has to face many challenges upon realizing this, on top of having to be a university student. The age difference between the leads put a lot of people off. It kept me entertained, though I must admit the last four episodes almost lost me. I ended up enjoying it, but I wouldn't say it will be one of my favorites. I watched this one week to week.




Memoir of Rati

A period romance set in the first decade of the 20th century. Rati, the adopted son of a French ambassador, arrives in Siam and stays to teach French to the officials of the time and to the king. He falls in love with one of them, Count Theerathon Wisut. Prejudices against same gender relationships, as well as class prejudices, make the relationship difficult. We also see the story of Mek, a Muay fighter and rickshaw puller, and Baronet Dech. Their story highlights that class difference that complicates everything even more. The series is very visually beautiful, and both GreatInn and AouBoom looked gorgeous in it; but in the end, I felt the story lacked impact (in my opinion). Maybe that's just my perception because I like tragic and sad stories. I enjoyed it while it was airing. It was cute and sweet, but I think the conflicts were resolved in a way that was too simple, but oh well…




Century of Love

In the early 20th century, San is saved by Wat and falls in love with her. They are in love with each other, but because of her status, she must marry someone else, but she doesn’t want to. On her wedding day, she escapes with San, whom she truly loves, only to end up dead after stepping between Trai (her fiancé) and San. San can't save her, but he performs a ritual in front of the goddess Nuwa using the five-colored rock, a magical object that grants immortality. This ritual allows him to live for a hundred years, provided he can find the reincarnation of Wat, his beloved. In exchange for not dying, every night he will suffer intense pain caused by the poison of the five-colored rock. Furthermore, every new moon, his body will completely regenerate to endure the torment each month, and the way it does this is by turning him into a small child. Just as he is about to lose hope of finding his beloved, since the time limit is approaching, with the help of Ton (the helper and guardian of the goddess's temple) they find the person Wat reincarnated into, only to realize that this time the soul was reborn in a man: Vee. From this point, many things happen before our couple can find a little peace. I ended up enjoying it quite a bit, but I must admit the fact that Pond Ponlawit appeared made it a little hard not to get distracted during the episodes and scenes he was in, because he is very, very beautiful. Daou also made me not look at the subtitles and having to rewind the episode to see what I had missed.





CURRENTLY WATCHING

Dramas:
  • Desire (Chinese Omegaverse drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 11/16 episodes
  • 10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays - 10/12 episodes
  • My Magic Prophecy (Thai BL) - Weekly, Sundays - 6/10 episodes
  • I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays - 6/13 episodes
  • Shine (Thai drama) - Weekly, Saturdays - 6/8 episodes
  • Khemjira (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays or Sundays - 5/12 episodes
  • Secret Lover* (Taiwanese BL) - No schedule - 5/12


Desire

I’m enjoying the toxicity, though I feel like it’s a bit slow at times. I don’t really have an issue with that, but I know some people do. I loved seeing Hua Yong being the fakest bitch ever and now that the truth is out, I’m enjoying that too… he’s just so unhinged. And like every week, I feel the need to protect Gao Tu, but I’m also starting to be fond of Mister Shen “Chronic Foot in Mouth” Wenlang. He cares about Gao Tu; he is just very very very emotionally stunted that he cannot show it in a normal way. I also love Hua Yong and Shen Wenlang’s weird friendship.




10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40


The past two episodes have been my least favorite, but I understand their purpose in the narrative. I am looking forward to the resolution, and I need to read the manga because I’ve heard there are differences. And you all know I love 1) checking the differences between the source material and its adaptations, 2) el chisme.




My Magic Prophecy

It's quite cute, but there's also sadness and angst. What I like the most is the dynamic between the protagonists. I know it’s going to have a happy ending, so there’s no need to stress about it.




I’m the Most Beautiful Count

It's a very fun series that sometimes makes my heart hurt when it touches on themes of unjust laws and oppression. I am really liking Nut Supanut. I know there’s a lot of controversy about the adaptation and that Thai fans are not happy with it. I read some context, but I am still gonna finish it. I’m totally invested.




Shine

Gods, this show has been really good; every single episode has managed to leave me breathless and speechless. It’s beautifully filmed, and the story is compelling (for me). Also, the beauty of Apo Nattawin has me hooked. I am almost tempted to watch KinnPorsche just for him one of these days, but he looks very baby there and I kinda prefer how he looks as Trin. There are only two episodes left of this one, and I’m looking forward to them. I admit I don’t want a happy ending for this one, but as a person who tries to never set any kind of expectation, I hope it keeps surprising me. I’ve heard some people don’t like BOC because they think their stories are pretentious, and only having seen Man Suang, I could agree, but I’m genuinely liking Shine a lot. A LOT.




Khemjira

This one is so good, too!! I didn’t hesitate to start it even though it said it was going to be spooky, but so far it’s been fine for a scaredy cat like me. I’m enjoying it, and I would like to know more about the magic and rituals it integrates into the story. I’ve read some of the chats Pheem uses are actual rituals from Thai folklore. The mains are cute, and the side couple is cute, too. And the ghosts are mostly sad, except the evil lady ghost. She creeps me out.




*Secret Lover

I almost dropped it and I'm not caught up anymore, but I'm feeling curious to see what has happened. Is it FOMO or my obsession with finishing things? It's just that at some point it started to bore me, but if I watch a couple of episodes and it grabs my attention again, I'll consider giving it a second chance.




Anime:
  • The Summer Hikaru Died – Weekly, Saturdays – 8/?
  • Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12
  • Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
  • Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12

On hold
  • The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
  • Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL drama) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes


CURRENTLY READING
  • SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
  • Counterattack - Chapter 189 (I actually managed to read a bit since the last update!)
  • Panguan - Chapter 6

I started reading Panguan last week for the Read Along organized by [personal profile] geraineon 

The thing is that I started it without having finished Counterattack... And when I started reading Counterattack, I did it without having finished SVSSS Vol. 4. That means now I have three novels in progress.

I don't make wise decisions... But... shiny new things.

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