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First update of the year because I still have free time before going back to work on Monday ToT

Finished watching

Last Samurai Standing (Japanese drama) – 6 episodes

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
Counterattack - Chapter 198
Panguan - Chapter 40

Currently watching

Dramas

Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 8/10 episodes
Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 9/11 (12?) episodes
Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 9/13 episodes
Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 5/10 episodes
Dare You To Death (Thai BL) – Thursdays – 2/10 episodes
KinnPorsche (Thai BL) – No Schedule – 3/14 episodes
Peach Trap (Korean BL) – No Schedule – 3/8 episodes
Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Documentary

Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

Reality show

DMD Friendship Reality, the Third Chapter – No schedule – 2/10 episodes

On hold

Anime

Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Yesterday, I watched Last Samurai Standing with a friend who doesn’t watch BL or isn't very online. We were hanging out, he suggested we watch something, and we did that thing where we don’t know what to choose for, like, 15 minutes. Then he chose that, I approved, and that’s how we spent the rest of the day. There were samurai, sangre y muerte, things I enjoy a lot, so I had a good time. It was only six episodes but ended on a cliffhanger, with the promise of a second season. I groaned out loud. But I had fun. It’s fun watching things with friends. This friend is very patient with me when I yell at the screen or laugh maniacally. Also, this was the first completed drama (season 1, ugh) on my updated 2026 spreadsheet.

Today I did laundry and went to therapy. It was an interesting session after the holidays and some things that happened during Christmas at my parents’ house, so I was out of it for a bit. Afterwards, I watched my weekly comfort show, Me and Thee, and I laughed, but I cried a little too. I realized I LOVE when Thee smiles besottedly every time Peach says or does something. I think I like that expression Pond makes; it’s incredibly endearing and cute. I also feel like the next episode will reach full tension with all the mafia family stuff and them being forbidden to have a relationship. Only two more episodes, and I’ll watch the finale at an event with other local fans. I hope I don’t ugly cry in public, and if I do, I hope everyone else does too :D

Then, today, after eating, I started watching Peach Trap. I watched three episodes today. There’s one cutie and three potential suitors, and all I could think was: let him have his harem! But, even without knowing anything else, I know that won’t happen. Anyway, it’s short and it’s kind of cute so far. We’ll see what shenanigans they deliver.

I also watched episode 9 of Interminable, and so many things happened. It’s episode 8/11… or 12, according to a post I saw elsewhere, where Idol Factory announced the number of episodes went from 11 to 12. From what I understood, it was supposed to be 11 episodes + 1 special episode. Anyway, the post said the change was made to ensure the story is “continuous and as complete as possible” or something like that. Regardless, the political intrigue made the episode interesting, and I’m curious to read about that era and the real political conflicts. I’m also curious to know how they’re going to resolve the rest of the story because I feel so much needs to happen for a happy ending. I feel like it took a bit too long for this story to feel like something was really happening, but maybe it will make more sense later?

And that’s it. I’m planning how to organize my time to watch some of the shows I have on hold. I’m not starting this year with a clean slate (regarding my watching list, lol): I have 15 things I started last year (some of them On hold). One I really want to resume watching is The Long Ballad. I’m not sure what shows are airing soon, and I’m not sure if this year I want to keep watching so many currently airing shows. I kind of want to explore older shows, and not just BL, so I need to be more mindful. I think I managed fine last year, not trying to watch everything, and trying to choose the ones that interested me the most.

I wanted to make a dent in my watchlist during winter break, but as I said in the last 2025 update, it’s always a bit busy. I also spent a significant amount of time working on my Khemjira fic. I spent almost the entirety of the first day of this year writing that fic, editing some stuff I transcribed from my handwritten notes, and adding notes for things I want to write later. It’s been so much fun, but I’ve been in a frenzied state I don’t think I’ve ever experienced before. I want to find a beta reader at some point, but I want to finish it first because, somehow, showing something unfinished to someone—and the idea of receiving feedback (either positive or negative) or generating some kind of expectation—makes me very anxious. But the thing is that it keeps growing. When I started writing a couple of months ago, I took my notebook and wrote a lot of fragments from different points in the story as I started watching it inside my head. I saw it happen like a movie, and translating all those images to words has proven to be hard, fun, but hard. It takes so much time to find the exact way I want to describe what my mind’s eye is seeing happen, and sometimes I think the result isn’t satisfying, but I lack the expressivity or the techniques. After all, I’m not an experienced writer or anything, not even as a hobbyist. And my work as an editor is for educational things: textbooks, interactive material for college students… anyway. I’m not looking forward to Monday; I’m gonna miss being a little feral over this story that started as an innocent idea for a sex pollen fic that then came to life on its own.

All this said, I don’t know when my next update will be. I can’t promise consistency because I don’t know how busy I’m gonna be, especially since I have some plans I cannot talk about. Maybe I don’t believe in any religion or specific spiritual things, but I am very superstitious about sharing stuff I’m excited about because I have jinxed myself more than once.

So, see you soon… at some point.

Final update of the year, on the very last day of the year (where I’m from… I know it’s already 2026 in the other half of the world, but whatever).

This sure has been… a year… and I don’t want a repeat. Not that it’s possible, but you know what I mean. Here’s to better things in 2026: fewer shitty non-curses, fewer mental breakdowns, less poverty, more joy.

I can say that besides my kid’s existence and needs (and not wanting to traumatize him further), this ridiculous endeavor of mine to watch as many BL dramas as possible is one of the things that has kept me alive this year. And for that… I don’t know if I should say I’m grateful, but here I am… for better or worse.

I want to apologize for being a dark presence instead of a ray of sunshine or hope. I’m really sorry if I made you feel down or sad at any point this year with my stories or whatever. I’m only human, and sometimes I need to let things out or I’m at risk of exploding, iykwim.

Anywaaaaaaaay, the update:

Finished watching

Dramas

Me and Who (Thai BL) – 10 episodes
Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – 8 episodes
ClaireBell (Thai GL) – 8 episodes
Thundercloud Rainstorm (Korean BL) – 8 episodes
Heated Rivalry (Canadian mini series) – 6 episodes
School Trip: Joined a Group I’m Not Close to (Japanese BL) – 10 episodes
Love Sea: The Home for Lovers (Japanese BL) – 12 episodes

Movies

10Dance (Japanese film)
Dangerous Drugs of Sex (Japanese film)

Currently writing

Khemjira Fic - 5795 words (Whaaaaaat???!!!)
Secret omegaverse story - 1578

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
Counterattack - Chapter 198
Panguan - Chapter 40

Currently watching

Dramas

Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 9/13 episodes
Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 8/11 episodes
Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 7/10 episodes
Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 5/10 episodes
KinnPorsche (Thai BL) – No Schedule – 3/14 episodes
Dare You To Death (Thai BL) – Thursdays – 2/10 episodes
Runaway (Thai GL) – No schedule – 2/8 episodes

Documentary

Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

Reality show

DMD Friendship Reality, the Third Chapter – No schedule – 2/10 episodes

On hold

Anime

Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

It’s been a month since the last update, and I’ve finished a lot of shows… partly taking advantage of my free time (winter break at my job; working for a “university” has its hidden blessings). That helped, and I wanted to watch more, but these are busy days and everybody seems to want to hang out, so it hasn’t been possible.

I’ve also been writing, and feeling down or overwhelmed, depending on my hormones, the weather, or my family… you know how it is. December is an overwhelming month. I don’t like it that much, honestly, but what am I gonna do? I really can’t just hibernate, as much as I’d love to… lol.

Anyway, I’m going to try to be brief, or I won’t finish this today.

First of all, the ones I finished:

Me and Who. This one was so fun and sweet. I honestly had a great time watching it week to week, even though some things really didn’t make sense or lacked explanation… and I love knowing everything. I really wanted to know about Ya’s family mind reading ability, for example. I also liked BigPark’s chemistry; they’re adorable and sweet, and now I want to watch Monster Next Door thanks to them. Also, I don’t know if lately I’ve just been in the mood for silly and sweet or what, because usually I’m more inclined toward plot heavy or darker stories, but I’ve been enjoying the silliness and the romance, despite being very averse to it irl :D

Mystique in the Mirror. This one kept me intrigued from start to end. I really didn’t want to venture too many theories about what was really going on, but I suspected it, and in the end I cried. It was good, and I liked it a lot despite a few things that felt a bit unnecessary (like the second couple… don’t get me wrong, they were kind of sweet, but I didn’t feel like their romance added something to the main story, and it took me out of it sometimes). I really don’t want to go into much detail because almost everything can qualify as a spoiler for this one. Just, if you are too sensitive to mental illness and death, maybe stay away.

ClaireBell. This is officially the first GL I’ve ever watched, and it became one of my favorite dramas of this year! Now I really want to explore more GLs, so I’ll take recommendations. I loved so many aspects of this one. For starters, that it’s set in prison, which meant there was going to be violence, sadness, injustice, and morally questionable characters… and it didn’t disappoint. A surprise was seeing Pond Ponlawit in it; he’s an actor I’ve come to admire this year after watching Reset. But I’m digressing. I really enjoyed seeing the characters develop, not just Claire and Bell. I loved seeing their stories and their evolution. I also loved the mix of sweetness and sadness in Claire and Bell’s relationship. Of course I cried a couple of times, and not just for them. Another aspect I really liked was the cinematography. I don’t know, I just enjoyed it so much. These women are incredibly talented. As an aside, I randomly discovered that Farida (Duen) speaks a little Spanish, and she seems like such a sweet girl.

Thundercloud Rainstorm. I enjoyed the first half more, where it was messier, angstier, and darker. Not that it became incredibly fluffy in the second half or anything, but the mood kind of switched a bit. But I like it overall.

Heated Rivalry. I almost don’t want to mention it because this one seems to be starting to divide opinions, and not in a good way, but I enjoyed it a lot. I said on fedi that maybe I feel like if I weren’t as horny as I am (horny not as a transitory state but as an inherent quality of my being) and if I hadn’t read so much horny fanfiction over the years, I wouldn’t have enjoyed it as much as I did… It made me feel things, and I always appreciate that. Do I think of it as groundbreaking? Not really, no. But I see why some people are so marveled by it, being their first contact with a certain kind of story… Maybe a couple of years ago, before I delved into Asian BL, my reaction would have been different (like many other people who mostly watch Western dramas), or maybe I would have avoided it because anything that’s highly hyped makes me almost immediately not want to watch it (see GoT, Stranger Things… etc.). Anyway, I liked it. I enjoyed it. I get why people don’t.

School Trip: Joined a Group I’m Not Close to. It was sweet, cute, charming, and I adored every bit of it. It very much reminded me of My Love Mix-Up and I Cannot Reach You. I loved Watarai and Hioki so much. I still need to watch the special episode, but I suppose that will have to wait until 2026 :D I mentioned this as the sweetest romance I watched this year in the End of the Year Challenge over on fedi.

Love Sea: The Home for Lovers. This one is an adaptation of a Thai series. It’s written by MAME, and I haven’t watched the original, but judging by the comments, I don’t know if I’m going to. I enjoyed this one. I don’t know if I could endure 10 episodes of that plot but twice as long. The NC scenes were good, too, imo.

10Dance. Edited the post because how did I forget this one? I watched it the day it came out. There was so much hype around it, but as always, I tried to keep my expectations low. I enjoyed it… it’s visually stunning, and the dances are mesmerizing. Also, Machida Keita. The thing is, the source material (the manga it’s adapted from) is still ongoing, so this story felt a bit incomplete. I liked the way they ended it, but the competition mentioned in the title (the 10 dance didn’t happen in the movie. So I don’t know; maybe they’re planning to wait for the manga to finish to adapt a sequel? Another thing that left me with a weird aftertaste was the romanticization of Latin America, especially as a Latin American.

Dangerous Drugs of Sex. I watched this because one of my mutuals elsewhere mentioned they’d seen it and listed the trigger warnings, so of course I was going to give it a try: very toxic, very graphic, non-con, kidnapping, captivity, bondage, manipulation, psychological torture, grief, trauma, suicidal ideation… I liked it. A lot. It helped me get out of a very dark mood yesterday, and I don’t know what that says about me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Now the ones I’m watching:

Goddess Bless You From Death. I like this one. It has been consistently spooky. Right now I’m a bit confused by the plot, but I’m just going with the flow, waiting for events to be explained at some point (not trying too hard to come up with theories) and enjoying the supernatural elements. That’s still my favorite part. I’m having a lot of fun.

Interminable. I keep watching, but it’s very slow. Very. Sometimes it feels like a chore. There are three episodes left, so I’m gonna finish it, but I didn’t think it would live up to its name ToT Billy and Babe are gorgeous in it, though.

Me and Thee. I adore it. I love Theerakit Kian Lee with all my heart. He’s so extra and so out there. And it’s so funny. I laugh a lot, but it’s had very sweet moments too. It genuinely makes me so happy, and I look forward to every episode each week.

Burnout Syndrome. I’m enjoying this one very much. Every single episode makes me feel a lot of things, and it’s visually beautiful, very artsy. And goddammit, I wish they would give us DewGun for real and not just tease us with it. It’s like they’re edging us, but the frustrating part is that there will be no reward, you know? I know it in my bones. I’m still loving it. I’ve seen people who struggle with it because they don’t feel like they can root for any of the characters, and I get it… but that’s precisely the kind of story that makes me go feral. I’ve also seen people say they won’t like it if they redeem Koh (Off’s character), but I have a whole lot to say about that tendency to hate when they forgive characters in Asian dramas : ) Not here, though… somewhere, someday…

KinnPorsche. I finally started watching it. I’ve only watched three episodes since I wanted to finish the Japanese dramas before the year ended. I watched the first one very drunk, while drinking a lot of water, trying to get less drunk before going to bed to avoid a disaster. And I enjoyed it. I remember I tried to watch it even before I watched The Untamed. I got a monthly subscription to iQIYI and was exploring the options without really knowing much about Thai BL, but I wasn’t ready. Now I’ve watched Shine (one of my favorite dramas of this year) and Man Suang (back then I didn’t know who Mile or Apo were, so I went in blind, and I don’t remember much of it), so I thought it would be a good idea to watch this classic of Thai BL, and I’m enjoying it. If I have the mental energy, maybe I can finish it this week, before going back to work next Monday.

Dare You To Death. It’s not good so far. We’ll see if I finish it or drop it. It’s a shame because I’m fond of JoongDunk, but it’s just not doing it for me.

Runaway. Need to get back to this one. But maybe I’m going to restart it.

Ah, yes. I'm also watching a reality show... DMD Friendship The Third Chapter. I'm rooting for my adopted son, Pung Phirunwat. Also, now all the other boys are my nephews, except Porsche Sitha, who can be my compadre.

Look, my list isn’t very long now, and I’m very proud of myself, but I don’t know how long I’ll resist before adding a ton more shows to watch lol. I want to watch more older shows and shows from different countries, like the Philippines or Vietnam. I also want to get back to the ones I have on hold. And watch more anime, and write more, and and and… I don’t do New Year’s resolutions; I just try to do my best and all that.

If 2025 was a shitty year for you, I hope 2026 is better.

See you on the other side, with more updates… at some point.

Current Music: Jeff Satur - ของขวัญปีใหม่ (Golden Night)

The year is coming to an end and I'm... distressed. The christmas stuff is overwhelming and stressful, there are two events at work, and there's also the lack of sunlight (not extreme like the far north, but my body and my brain still resent it). I need to go and sit under the sun for five minutes periodically, and keep drinking warm water to be at least a little bit warm. And I wish every day I could just hibernate and wake up when there's a bit more sunlight. Gosh, I wish I could live in a place where the weather is always mild, or be able to migrate south for the winter, like a bird. Anyway, here’s my update.

Finished watching
Dramas

Zomvivor (Thai Drama) – 7 episodes
The Cursed Love (Thai BL) – 10 episodes
Punks Triangle (Japanese BL) – 8 episodes
The Wicked Game (Thai BL) – 10 episodes

Currently writing

Khemjira Fic - 4016 words
Secret omegaverse story - 1578

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
Counterattack - Chapter 198
Panguan - Chapter 31

Currently watching
Dramas

Me and Who (Thai BL) – Fridays – 8/10 episodes
Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 6/8 episodes
Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 5/13 episodes
Runaway (Thai GL) – Tuesdays – 2/8 episodes
ClaireBell (Thai GL) – Saturdays – 4/8 episodes
Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 4/11 episodes
Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 3/10 episodes
Burnout Syndrome (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 1/10 episodes
Thundercloud Rainstorm (Korean BL) – Fridays – 2/8 episodes
Heated Rivalry (Canadian mini series) – Fridays (?) – 1/6 episodes

Documentary

Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 3/4 episodes

Anime

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 8/12 episodes

On Hold

Anime

Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Last time I posted an update, I wrote this: “As expected, I've started watching a ton of things again.” And guess what? Well, you can probably guess.

Okay, but first, let’s talk about the things I finished watching:

Zomvivor: I admit most of the characters were a bit exasperating most of the time, but I don’t know… I feel like I’ve become more and more forgiving. I ended up liking the show, and now that there seem to be plans for a second season, I’m curious. I saw many folks were pissed about the ending, but I wasn't. First of all, because I’ve never hated open endings; they’ve been part of my media diet growing up, so they don’t bother me at all. Second, to me, it’s clear they planned to continue the story. Third, even though I can seem full of rage about some stuff, there are things I just can’t be mad about because anger is very energy-consuming, and nowadays I try to be more conscious about what I spend my energy on. Anyway, if there’s really a second season, hopefully we won’t have to wait as many years as people waited for this one.

The Cursed Love: At times it was a bit of a chore to keep watching, but there were enough elements to keep me curious. Sadly, the script was also a bit messy and felt very incomplete somehow. I kinda liked the ending because I’m a sucker for that kind of finale, though.

Spoilers ahead, in case anyone here cares lol

I liked that Siwat ended up dying because it fit the title of the show. I assume the new guy with Siwat's face who showed up at the end is going to be some sort of reincarnation? No idea how, but who are very physically alike do exist, so maybe his soul just chose a new vessel who looks a lot like his past incarnation? I don’t even know. I usually like to think about what could happen post-canon, and if I were more invested in this story, I would even try to write (or think about) a fic, but alas. I usually like endings where everybody dies, but one of the deaths here felt pointless and undeserved.

And, not gonna lie, the whole time I kept thinking: “this is a situation that polyamory would solve… whatever these three have going on.” But I know asking for a poly BL might be a bit much still. That reminds me that I want to watch Two Husbands One Wife and Three Will Be Free. But going back to this show: it was an interesting premise, but the execution could have been much better. The actor who played Siwat was very pretty.

Punks Triangle: I ended up bingeing episodes 1-7 last Sunday when existential dread attacked again, and it was fun and cute. I really appreciate Japanese BLs; they have a very particular vibe I like a lot. And I really need to watch more of them. According to MDL, where I’ve tracked all the Japanese BLs I’ve seen, I’ve only watched 23. That’s kinda outrageous. But talking specifically about this one, I really liked the struggles of the protagonists, each with their own insecurities and their craving for connection. It has some very sexy moments that made me blush even though they’re not explicit at all. I love when a series does that with an ear touch or... fingers in a mouth. I am a sucker (lol) for fingers in mouth scenes. It makes me think of Old Fashion Cupcake and My Personal Weatherman off the top of my head… anyway, I liked this one.

The Wicked Game: I’ve talked about my philosophy of not having high expectations, and how it saves me from big disappointments, right? Well, it helped a lot in this case. I admit I enjoyed it; it was fun and unhinged, and very telenovelesca, but I kinda wanted it to go the dark route.

Spoilers ahead

It gave me Risa as the winner of the wicked game (sorry, sorry), but very briefly. For a moment, I thought Chet and Peem were both dead, but since we never saw Peem’s corpse, I knew he wasn’t, and that was what disappointed me. Another disappointing thing was that they didn’t give us even a little kiss between Chet and Park, but I’m letting that one slide because Park ended up being killed by Risa’s bodyguard after he killed Risa, and that kind of devotion is also very sexy, so… yeah. Again, I like “everyone dies” finales, and I kinda wanted this one to be like that… better luck next time, I guess. In the end, Than inherited everything Peem left him after faking his death, and then Peem came back with a new name to start over. I just hope Than doesn’t insist on going back to being a cop, because ew, dude. He can clean his name, and then maybe open a restaurant. I don’t know.

I enjoyed it overall, but yeah, I wanted it to be darker than it was. But again, I’m not really mad.

I'm not gonna talk about every show I’m watching or I’ll never end this update.

I keep enjoying Me and Thee. It makes me laugh a lot, but it has tender moments too. I immediately adopted Theerakit Kian Lee. He’s my adopted son now. I just love how over the top and socially awkward he is. I love the patience Peach has for him, and how Thee is learning how to behave like a normal person lol. Some of his behavior reminds me of myself, and maybe that’s one of the reasons I immediately fell in love with him: he memorizes the lines of his favorite shows and uses them as his own lines in everyday life, and he needs to be told about some very basic stuff that people take for granted because he genuinely doesn’t understand. Yeah… Anyway, it’s been a delight, and I look forward to every new episode.

I haven’t watched this week’s episode of ClaireBell because I was busy yesterday, and today I was very out of it—very distracted and unable to pay attention to anything—so I really didn’t watch anything today. But this one is so good (I hope episode 5 is good too). It makes my heart ache, but I like how this couple of girls have found each other in such a dark and terrible place. I’m sure things are gonna be a bit dark/violent in the next episodes, but that’s very fitting.

I started THREE new shows this week, so my watching list remains the same :) I don’t learn, but I don’t care. One of the things that keeps me interested in living are my little shows, so I’ll take it for as long as I can. The other big motive to stay alive is the kid, but as I’ve never been the ideal selfless parent, I need selfish motives too… things for myself only. Don’t judge me too harshly for this; we hold onto what we can.

I started Burnout Syndrome because when I watched the pilot trailer last year, it was one of the few that made me perk my ears up and go "wow, wow." The first episode was such a strong start. Jira (Gun Atthaphan) is an artist who struggles with being unemployed; he’s burnt out, or at least that’s what they’re calling it (he seems very depressed, I mean… it’s part of it too), and he’s also very broke. So yeah, yeah… been there, very relatable. He goes to an interview and the person interviewing him keeps asking if he knows how to use “AI”, and when he says he would prefer not to, the woman confronts him because his resume says he’s adaptable. That also felt like a punch in the gut, because those same words have been used against me in very similar circumstances regarding “AI” too. Then, Ing, his friend, sends him to a bar “to heal,” and he ends up meeting Pheem (Dew Jirawat). Later, Ing also gets him a companionship gig that goes wrong, and there he meets Koh (Off Jumpol), who ends up hiring him as a companion (different guy from the failed gig). It’s going to be messy, or at least it seems like it, but gosh… the colors, the music, the whole mood were exquisite. I also like how they incorporate the art in the episode. They hired an artist, and I think I fell in love with her art. If she ever sells prints, I’d love to buy one (or more). It’s very sensual art. This is her account: naisu.chirat

The other show I started is a Korean BL called Thundercloud Rainstorm. Discord pals lured me in with talk of a “toxic, incestuous relationship, and very sexy.” Of course, I had to give it a chance. I liked the first two episodes. It’s going to be short; we’ll see how it goes.

Lastly, also thanks to the Discord pals, I started watching Heated Rivalry. This one is Canadian. It’s about two hockey players who are rivals but become fuck buddies, and, if I remember correctly, they also end up falling in love at some point. The first episode was good; very high heat, as the title suggests. I haven’t watched episode 2 because I’ve been struggling a bit this weekend, but I hope to catch up before the next one is released.

From the shows I didn’t go into detail here, I’m just gonna list them in the order I’m enjoying and looking forward to them the most:

Me and Who (Thai BL) – This one is so cute and I’m enjoying the main couple a lot.
Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – This one keeps being scary. The ghosts have given me jump scares every single episode lol. I’m also enjoying PoohPavel a lot. I like their dynamics, and in the last episode, Singha’s expressions when Thup approached him were chef's kiss.
Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – I want to know what’s going ooooooooooooooon!
Interminable (Thai BL) – Still feels a bit slow but… butts. They showed unpixelated butts, also… Khun Yai is a menace with no game, and Kaewta is the prettiest.
Runaway (Thai GL) – Need to catch up on this one.

The next thing I want to talk about is how I’m enjoying writing my silly fics. But there are two: one is the Khemjira one, and I already have 4k words… I can’t believe it! I may even finish it before the year ends, but I don’t want to be too optimistic or ambitious. Then there’s the other one; it’s my first attempt at writing omegaverse, and even though it started as a way of venting about some corporeal stuff and is planned to mostly be PWP, I got sucked into several worldbuilding rabbit holes. I have been trying to figure out different aspects, like the anatomy I want to give the characters, the fricking scents, the suppressors, how it could affect certain kinds of jobs, etc. And even if I don’t end up integrating it all into the story, it’s interesting because, as a reader, I’ve always let myself be guided by whatever the authors chose to depict, and that was that, because it’s something each author can adapt and play with, so one story doesn’t dictate how others work. But writing is a whole different beast. A fun one, though. For now. I’m exhilarated because it’s been a while since I felt this need to write, so I’m letting myself enjoy it while it lasts. I also have another idea for a third fic, also based on Khemjira, but following a supporting character. It’s been weeks since I had the idea, but I haven’t written anything about it yet, not even the idea as a placeholder in my drafts, but I might need to do it ASAP. Every time I listen to “Ride or Die” by Jeff Satur, it reminds me of the idea, so, yeah…

And that’s it for now.

Current Music: Jeff Satur - ของขวัญปีใหม่ (Golden Night)

I don't think I talked here about the tragic end of my Yuri on Ice embroidery project, but it was mostly because one of my philosophical stances (although it might seem contradictory for someone with OCD… or maybe not) is to not cling to things (nor to people or feelings; it's complicated to explain and it has taken me a lot of time and effort, and I still don't think I've fully mastered it; I'd really have to become an ascetic or something, but that's another topic). This year, the rainy season was intense here in central Mexico: there were floods in other states and also in the north of the state where I live, which left many people with nothing. The humidity in the house where I live was so intense that everything felt constantly damp, and the rains gave us no break to let anything dry. That's what ruined my embroidery, although it wasn't the only casualty: it also affected clothes and some books. But that's how things are when you live in a semi-ruin (the beauties of being poor, huh? At least I didn't lose everything. At least I can sit here and write this today). So, losing a WIP that I had already abandoned due to my internal crises and because sometimes I'm just not in the mood to do certain things (like embroider) didn't seem like a big deal. Of course, I felt a sense of powerlessness, but in the grand scheme of things, it was something easy to let go of, especially when daily life never stops bombarding me with its constant demands and I'm just one person, with limited strength and time... But, anyway, that's what happened: the embroidery was ruined. On to the next thing!

I'm not telling you this so you'll feel pity or sorry for me… it's just… I'm just telling the story, that's all…

Now then, for the other updates.

Currently writing

Khemjira Fic - 2510 words

Finished watching
Dramas

The Story of Bihyeong (Korean BL) – 12 episodes

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
Counterattack - Chapter 198
Panguan - Chapter 30

Currently watching
Dramas

Zomvivor (Thai Drama) – No schedule – 6/7 episodes
The Wicked Game (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 8/10 episodes
Me and Who (Thai BL) – Fridays – 6/10 episodes
The Cursed Love (Thai BL) – Wednesdays? – 6/10 episodes
Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 4/8 episodes
Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 3/13 episodes
Runaway (Thai GL) – Tuesdays – 2/8 episodes
ClaireBell (Thai GL) – Saturdays – 3/8 episodes
Interminable (Thai BL) – Fridays – 2/11 episodes
Me and Thee (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 1/10 episodes
The Long Ballad (Chinese Drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Documentary

Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No Schedule – 2/4 episodes

On Hold

Anime

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12 episodes
Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24 episodes
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12 episodes

Dramas

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

As expected, I've started watching a ton of things again. But this time I want to at least finish The Bangkok Boy and also watch some classics. I'm determined to finally watch KinnPorsche.

I started Zomvivor on Halloween because of the hype, and so far I've liked it. A lot of people didn't like the ending, but I can't judge yet since I haven't seen it. I think I also got lucky, because I saw that Domundi (if they didn't confirm it) at least hinted that there will be a second season, and I think that was the reason for many people's dissatisfaction: that it ended on a cliffhanger or something like that. It's funny, but last night I watched episode 5 and I dreamed that I was with other people escaping from and killing zombies, but I wasn't scared and I didn't wake up startled. I don't know if I'm becoming desensitized to the horror genre or what… I say this because I'm also watching Goddess Bless You From Death and while I'm watching the episodes, the ghosts don't really scare me that much (even though they’re really creepy); the fear comes later, when I have to go to the bathroom or go downstairs to fill my water bottle in the middle of the darkness (my phone's flashlight doesn't help much) and my very considerate brain visualizes ghosts in the shadows. It's not pleasant.

Speaking of Goddess Bless You From Death, this is the first PoohPavel series I've watched. I tried to watch Pit Babe, but I just couldn't. I started the first episode three times on different occasions and on two of them I fell asleep. The third time I did finish it, but it didn't grab me… oh well. Not everything is for everyone, nor does everything captivate us in the same way. This one, on the contrary, hooked me from the start and keeps me curious. And it does scare me a bit, but not enough to make me stop watching. Also, I think I got a little spoiled when I read a sample of the novel, but I decided to wait to read the whole thing until after I've watched the series. I think that's best, so I won't have too many expectations, haha.

I'm trying (with little success) not to get swept up by fomo, and I'm really not watching anywhere near all the series I'd like to (or that are airing), but that's okay. I've never been shy about being selective, although sometimes I wish I could watch everything just out of curiosity. I guess someday I'll give a chance to several of the things I'm missing out on now, like various currently airing Japanese BLs and some that have already finished, but I'd really rather binge them. I think I'll use part of my winter vacation to do that.

There are two weeks left until the end of The Wicked Game (with DaouOffroad) and it's been a fun experience. Very soap-opera-like, very toxic. It's not my favorite at the moment, but it's very entertaining and it even gave me an idea for a fic. That led me to do research for that fic, and then to an interesting conversation on Fedi, where I discovered that, apparently, if I write it, I'll be able to acquire my "hardcore pervert" status (I love it, I love it; and even though it was all in jest, I would love to claim that badge, hahaha).

The Cursed Love isn't that great either, but it has been entertaining and it made me read a bit about Brahmanism. I find one of the main characters extremely handsome. The premise is interesting, so that keeps me watching.

Me and Who is still fun and adorable, although there are aspects that seem like plot holes, but I feel it's too early to tell, because the story isn't complete yet and it might just be missing information. We'll see. The important thing is that it's one of those series that isn't too intense and that always makes me laugh at some point, which I appreciate.

Mystique in the Mirror is still a mystery, but I already have some theories about what might be going on, and it also keeps me intrigued. I'd also like to read the novel this series is based on, but I'll do it afterwards, so I don't spoil anything for myself. It's not that I'm absolutely against spoilers, but I prefer to wait. I know there are people who don't like reading the source BL Thai novels, but I do; sometimes there are aspects that are explained in more detail in them, especially those related to culture or religion, and I'm a sucker for footnotes.

Another series I started, and one I'd been waiting for since it was announced, is Interminable. It's the second project from BillyBabe as a branded pair, and I loved them in The Sign… This is a story about ghosts, curses, reincarnation, and a main character who is a Thai classical dancer (right now I don't remember the specific type, and if I go look it up, I'll lose the thread of this post). There have only been two episodes so far and they've been a bit slow, but I'm not going to miss every new episode, I’m going to devour them each week. As I've said, that kind of plot really appeals to me, especially because I like seeing the different approaches they take on the theme of karma and reincarnation (not necessarily because I love the idea of fated lovers, in fact, I think that’s the least interesting part for me). Plus, you can tell they invested quite a bit in the production. Just Babe's costumes as a dancer are stunning.

A very notable thing that happened in the last couple of weeks is that I started watching two GL series. The first ones in my life, I think, at least that I remember. I have read sapphic stories, but not in the context of Asian GL series. I started ClaireBell and Runaway. The latter has a premise somewhat similar to Khemjira, at least in the surface: a girl carrying karma from her past life is stalked by a vengeful ghost that wants to kill her when she turns 21, and the daughter of a shaman is the only one who can help her because their karma is intertwined. On the other hand, ClaireBell is set in a prison after the protagonist is accused of drug possession after someone planted them in her bag at a party. This series is really good; it just has me completely hooked, and I love that I followed my instinct and some people's recommendations to start it. I hope it stays that way until the end.

I also started watching Me and Thee and I had a blast; it was a lot of fun. We'll see how it continues.

At some point, I'll get back to Theory of Love and The Long Ballad, but I have a problem and I get easily distracted by new, shiny things. I'm sorry, I'm sorry… really. I also want to finish, at the very least, Sanrio Danshi from my anime list.

I've made a bit of progress with Panguan and I like it very, very much. I want to start participating more over here again, but it requires turning on the laptop and sometimes I just don't have the energy.

Ah, something else that's important, I think, is that I'm writing a Khemjira fic. It's something completely self indulgent, and at first I was a bit embarrassed at the thought of posting it, but then I told myself I could always just not post it, or post it anonymously. It's not even that it's super explicit or anything; I just think it's very cheesy, haha. I mean, the initial idea was a variant of sex pollen but the effects are caused by a cursed object, but the point is that the story appeared in my mind very clearly and one day I just had to start writing and writing, and I'm still writing. Little by little, but I think I'm getting somewhere, and it's fun, although now that I've reached certain explicit scenes (and they're cheesy on top of it, or maybe because of it), it gives me a sort of... I don't know what (cringe?), haha. It's just that I have to visualize certain positions and movements, because sometimes it's funny to read smut and imagine the positions from the descriptions, and sometimes it's just weird, haha. But I'm having a good time. And then, after I finish, will come the task of finding a beta reader… Anyway, anyway. If I don't talk much about it, it's because, even though Khemjira is still very popular (I think), I don't know anyone else besides one other person who is also writing a fic (in my circles, there are lots of people out there writing Khemjira fics)… and sometimes it bums me out not having anyone to talk to about it. Also, when I talk a lot about something I'm doing and people show a lot of enthusiasm, sometimes I feel pressured and lose the desire to continue… I know, I know… living with this brain 24/7 can be a really fun thing (sarcasm).

The post about Khemjira is also a work in progress, but it's just that I'm rewatching the episodes and taking notes. I'm not promising anything, but the intention is there.

And well, that's all for now.

Current Mood: blah

Finally, a proper update!!

Finished reading

Khemjira’s Rescue, by Cali

Finished watching

Dramas

Khemjira (Thai BL) - 12 episodes
I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - 13 episodes
The Journey to Kill You (Japanese BL) - 6 episodes

Movies

Dear Dakanda (Thailand, 2005)
Love Actually (UK, 2003)
Sinners (USA, 2025)
The Paradise of Thorns (Thailand, 2024)
Frankenstein (USA, 2025)

Reality show

DMD Frienship - 6 episodes

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
Counterattack - Chapter 198
Panguan - Chapter 22

Currently watching

Dramas

The Long Ballad (Chinese drama) – No schedule – 5/49 episodes
The Story of Bihyeong (Korean BL) –Thursdays – 10/12 episodes
The Wicked Game (Thai BL) – Saturdays – 6/10 episodes
Mystique in the Mirror (Thai BL) – Wednesdays – 2/8 episodes
Me and Who (Thai BL) – Fridays – 4/10 episodes
Theory of Love (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
The Cursed Love (Thai BL) – No schedule (no idea what days is airing) – 3/10 episodes
Zomvivor (Thai drama) – No schedule – 1/7 episodes
Goddess Bless You From Death (Thai BL) – Fridays – 1/13 episodes

Documentary

Debo, puedo y quiero: Juan Gabriel (Mexican documentary) – No schedule – 2/4 episodes

On hold

Anime

Sanrio Danshi– No schedule – 7/12
Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12

Dramas

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – No schedule – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

I finished Khemjira on Saturday, October 25th, which means it's been over a week now, and I haven't gotten over it. In fact, I'm trying to write another post just about Khemjira, but it's taking me a bit of time to organize all my thoughts about it because there are so many.

I'm currently watching, once again, several shows that air weekly, and the schedule seems a bit more balanced throughout the week. There are a couple of series that are on hold and that I want to watch, but the thing is, my thoughts are still 80% focused on Khemjira.

On Friday, for example, I started writing down an idea for a fic that had been bouncing around in my head for days. I grabbed a notebook and started writing with a medium point blue Bic pen. I wrote many pages, and now I have to transcribe it, haha. I started doing that yesterday and didn't get very far. Today I've done a few things like laundry and ordering groceries, but I want to make some progress. I have a small problem in that regard, because one part involves some research, but every time I try to do it, I end up reading related things but not directly what I need for the fic. I say it's a problem as if I didn't love doing this, but I admit it doesn't help much with the specific process of writing the fic.

I also finished watching I’m the Most Beautiful Count and The Journey to Killing You. I liked the second one a lot more, although I would have loved to see more of the characters and their internal conflicts.

Normally, I really appreciate how compact Japanese BLs are, telling just what they need to in so few episodes, but sometimes I'm left wanting more. I guess in this case, I'll have to turn to the source material to satisfy that craving.

As for I’m the Most Beautiful Count, I liked it, but I felt it was missing something. The premise is interesting (plus it involves transmigration to a past era) but it's one of those cases where the different elements of the story don't quite come together to form a cohesive whole… I don't know how else to explain it. It was entertaining most of the time, but it was lacking… something, something like a final polish.

Something interesting about most of the series I'm currently watching is that they all have a supernatural, folkloric, or magical element. The Story of Bihyeong is about a dokkaebi and other creatures from Korean folklore; it's a simple but lovely story, I’m having so much fun watching it. Mystique in the Mirror is intriguing because I still don't know if it's a psychological thriller or a supernatural thriller, and I'm very curious. Me and Who is about an ordinary working class guy who, after being hit by a car (or was it a motorcycle? I don’t remember) on a rainy night, transmigrates into a different universe where he's the heir to a very wealthy family and is engaged, and his fiancé in that universe can read minds. The Cursed Love is about past lives, finding an ancient lost city, and powers to control the elements like in Avatar: The Last Airbender. Zomvivor… well, it's in the name, it's about zombies. And Goddess Bless You From Death involves violent crimes, strange rituals and beliefs in ghosts and deities. So it's evident what captures my interest the most these days, but also in general. I guess it's a bit like when I was young and obsessed with vampires.

At some point, I want to pick up The Long Ballad again this week.

Another drama I started and is now a bit on pause is Theory of Love. I started watching this series as part of an exercise proposed by someone in the sphere of mexican Thai BL fans. The person proposed it as a rewatch exercise, but with a twist: before watching each episode, watch the movie that inspired that episode's title. It's designed to watch one movie and one episode per week. I've seen the first two movies (Dear Dakanda and Love Actually), as well as the first two episodes. In my case, it's not a rewatch because I haven't seen the series before. But I have to confess something: based on how the series starts, I find it a bit hard to think of that couple as endgame, so most of the time I'm thinking that the best thing for the protagonist would be to get over his crush and move on with his life, find someone else… It sounds strange, because I think this is the first time this has happened to me since I started watching BL series.

I've watched several series where the couples aren't what I would consider a healthy pair, and some even have very toxic relationships (hahaha, damn, I can visualize certain people judging me for my tastes, even when they're no longer part of my circles, lol). But I don't know, I suppose many of those scenarios are very unrealistic, whereas having a crush on your university friend who doesn't even notice you exist, and who is also an asshole, is very realistic… or maybe not. The exercise initially seemed interesting to me, but when I made the list of movies, I think it didn't really motivate me much either, since almost all of them are romances or romantic comedies, and although I appreciate the genre for what it is and there are even a couple on the list that I genuinely like, the others didn't excite me much, especially since I've already seen many of them. I'm not usually opposed to revisiting movies or series I've already seen because I think distance helps you see them differently, with a different filter, with more baggage, understanding different kinds of references, but in this case, it's just not motivating me much. I'm still thinking about whether to continue or not. The idea excited me at first because I love searching for and learning about the references in works, and also seeing how they relate to each other. It's one of the things I love most about reading, watching series and movies, and listening to music. But well, I don't know. This is the movie list:

Dear Dakanda
Love Actually
Friends with Benefits
Crazy Stupid Love
10 Things I Hate About You
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Flipped
The Proposal
Love Triangle
Begin Again
He's Just Not That Into You
My Dear

Finally, this past week I watched three movies that I liked a lot. Last Sunday I had an invitation to a friend's bridal shower, but I had a fever that, although mild, was definitely going to prevent me from having a good time, so I ended up not going and, instead, watched Sinners with some pals on Discord. I liked it a lot; the music is fantastic.

Later in the week, on Wednesday night, I finally decided to watch The Paradise of Thorns (I didn’t watch it just because Keng Harit and Jeff Satur are in it, I swear), and it left me thinking about many things. Thailand legalized equal marriage last year, but when the movie was made, it hadn't happened yet, and that's one of the points that triggers the whole plot. It impacted me a lot, perhaps because I've lived in poverty for most of my life and, even without fully understanding the characters' specific circumstances, I think it's a movie that reflects the desperation of having nothing very well. There are many layers intertwined in the film, and I think the characters are complex, extremely human. But also, the cinematography is amazing. I liked it a lot, but I admit I suffered. And it's not a movie I would recommend lightly, for example. This film reaffirms my taste for Boss Kuno's work, whom I discovered this year (Gelboys, I Told Sunset About You).

And yesterday, I went with the kid to see Guillermo del Toro's Frankenstein. We went to see it at the movie theater in the local university's cultural complex. It was a great movie. Everything I expected and more. I'm a huge Guillermo del Toro fan. Also, I think Guillermo understands Gothic horror perfectly; the man has been obsessed with that theme forever, and that’s why I love his work too. Of course, I couldn't help but cry at a certain point in the movie, and I felt an enormous, enormous satisfaction when I heard the kid's sobs at that same part. When we left, I apologized for taking him to see a movie that I knew could have that effect on him, but he said no, that he had liked it a lot, and that he especially liked everything it says about what it means to be human. He specifically mentioned two passages: when William asks Victor which part of all the ones that conform a human being contains the soul, and also when Victor says the creature doesn't know the difference between being chained and mistreated, and not being so, and Elizabeth throws it in his face that Victor does know that difference. Afterwards, my son asked me to lend him the novel to read. Mission accomplished.

But if we're honest, watching those three movies in one week is a bit intense. I still have images from all three etched in my mind. But I'm not complaining, because I truly love it when a work leaves a deep impression on me.

Anyway, I'll keep trying to put my thoughts about Khemjira in order, both for the post and for my fic.

I also have to catch up on reading Panguan, and if time allows, maybe even finish Counterattack or SVSSS before the year ends. But I don't want to get ambitious, because I can rarely get things done when I try to bite off more than I can chew.

Current Music: อ๊อฟ สุรพล - โฮมขวัญ (Ost. Khemjira The Series)

This was supposed to be the update of September 25… Ha! It’s been a bit hard to even open my personal laptop, sit and write these little updates. I haven’t had much energy or motivation either, but figured I could write an update today, since my brain isn’t being so mean to me. It’s been hard these past couple of months, but I am not going to talk about it here because it’s dark and scary. I want to talk about it in a different post, because it’s related to one of the shows I’m watching and I think the emotional connection has influenced my obsession (with Khemjira).

Instead, let’s talk about things that give me joy. At least making a list of what I’ve finished watching.

Finished watching

Dramas

10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – 12 episodes
Secret Lover (Taiwanese BL) – 12 episodes
Kill to Love (Chinese BL) - 12 episodes
Shine (Thai drama) – 8 episodes
My Magic Prophecy (Thai BL) – 10 episodes
My Stubborn Special Episode (Thai BL) – 2 episodes
My Secret Vampire (Korean BL) – 8 episodes
Desire (Chinese Omegaverse) – 16 episodes

Anime

The Summer Hikaru Died

Movies

The Medium (Thailand)
Nosferatu (Czech Republic/USA)

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
Counterattack - Chapter 198
Panguan - Chapter 18
Khemjira’s rescue - Chapter 44

Currently watching

Dramas

I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays - 10/13 episodes
Khemjira (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays or Sundays - 10/12 episodes
The Long Ballad (Chinese drama) - No schedule - 4/49 episodes
The Journey to Kill You (Japanese BL) - Fridays - 4/6 episodes
The Story of Bihyeong (Korean BL) –Thursdays – 4/12 episodes

On hold

Anime

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12
Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12

Dramas

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

If I find the energy and time to really write my opinions about some of these, I'll post them when I can...

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: Some circle of hell, probably
Current Music: KENG HARIT - มนตรา

I haven't done an update in a while (again) because life has been busy (as always) and, normally, by Sunday night I'm completely exhausted. Sitting down to write can be fun, but it also requires a mental effort that I can't always muster. A few months ago, I was still doing reaction threads on my blorbo account, but I noticed that doing that can make it take me longer to get through an episode. That's why I haven't done it with the series I've watched lately, though I think that has also made me talk a bit less about the things I enjoy.

Since my last update, I've finished watching several series. And I'm watching a lot too... I don't learn, do I?

CURRENTLY MAKING

The Yuri on Ice embroidery - Yes, still

FINISHED WATCHING

Revenged Love ( Chinese BL) – 24 episodes [August 12]
Reset (Thai BL) – 10 episodes [August 22]
The Little Red Matchmaker (Chinese drama) – 24 episodes [August 25]
The Promise of the Soul (Taiwanese BL) – 12 episodes [September 5]
Memoir of Rati (Thai BL) – 12 episodes [September 5]
Century of Love (Thai BL) – 10 episodes [September 5]

Revenged Love

It's from China. It caused quite a stir. It's 24 episodes and I had a lot of fun with them. However, there's something that happened in one of the first episodes that almost made me drop it and that still bothers me when I remember it… The thing is, the story is about characters of questionable morality who do dubious things to get what they want, and then there’s chaos, so much. I enjoyed it a lot because the characters are completely unhinged and the actors are very beautiful. Plus, the entanglements between all the characters were delicious to me.

Reset

I started this series out of curiosity because a lot of people liked it. It's about an actor who is murdered and, after dying, wakes up in his body from 20 years ago (I think it’s 25 but I don’t remember and I’m too lazy to check). This gives him the chance to relive his life and correct past mistakes. I found it hilarious that when he woke up in his young body, he was very agitated and would confront people who would harm him in the future as if those things had already happened. I ended up getting hooked because I wanted to know what would happen next, but also because of Pond Ponlawit's precious little face (yes, I’m shallow). I thought it was a pretty entertaining series and I couldn't stop watching it. I finished it in eight days.

The Little Red Matchmaker

I watched this series because I wanted to see Tian Xuning (Chi Cheng in Revenged Love) in another role. The series isn't very good, but I found it entertaining enough to finish. It's about a pair of immortals who face a nine-tailed fox demon. They die in the battle and reincarnate: one as a famous mortal doctor and the other as a matchmaking immortal (I don’t know if I’m making a mistake about the categories of these beings, it’s still a bit confusing). The premise seemed interesting to me, though maybe it could have been a better production. Tian Xuning is very cute in it and he wears a wig… The upside is that its episodes are only about 10 minutes long, so watching it wasn't a huge commitment. I finished it in 10 days.

The Promise of the Soul

This one had a peculiar premise. A grandfather and his grandson die at the same time, but the grandfather's soul is transferred into the grandson's body. Finding himself resurrected in his grandson's body, the grandfather is forced to adopt his identity and, in the process, becomes very close to a guy that the grandson liked (but who didn't like him back). However, it seems the grandson wasn't very well-liked among his peers, and the grandfather has to face many challenges upon realizing this, on top of having to be a university student. The age difference between the leads put a lot of people off. It kept me entertained, though I must admit the last four episodes almost lost me. I ended up enjoying it, but I wouldn't say it will be one of my favorites. I watched this one week to week.

Memoir of Rati

A period romance set in the first decade of the 20th century. Rati, the adopted son of a French ambassador, arrives in Siam and stays to teach French to the officials of the time and to the king. He falls in love with one of them, Count Theerathon Wisut. Prejudices against same gender relationships, as well as class prejudices, make the relationship difficult. We also see the story of Mek, a Muay fighter and rickshaw puller, and Baronet Dech. Their story highlights that class difference that complicates everything even more. The series is very visually beautiful, and both GreatInn and AouBoom looked gorgeous in it; but in the end, I felt the story lacked impact (in my opinion). Maybe that's just my perception because I like tragic and sad stories. I enjoyed it while it was airing. It was cute and sweet, but I think the conflicts were resolved in a way that was too simple, but oh well…

Century of Love

In the early 20th century, San is saved by Wat and falls in love with her. They are in love with each other, but because of her status, she must marry someone else, but she doesn’t want to. On her wedding day, she escapes with San, whom she truly loves, only to end up dead after stepping between Trai (her fiancé) and San. San can't save her, but he performs a ritual in front of the goddess Nuwa using the five-colored rock, a magical object that grants immortality. This ritual allows him to live for a hundred years, provided he can find the reincarnation of Wat, his beloved. In exchange for not dying, every night he will suffer intense pain caused by the poison of the five-colored rock. Furthermore, every new moon, his body will completely regenerate to endure the torment each month, and the way it does this is by turning him into a small child. Just as he is about to lose hope of finding his beloved, since the time limit is approaching, with the help of Ton (the helper and guardian of the goddess's temple) they find the person Wat reincarnated into, only to realize that this time the soul was reborn in a man: Vee. From this point, many things happen before our couple can find a little peace. I ended up enjoying it quite a bit, but I must admit the fact that Pond Ponlawit appeared made it a little hard not to get distracted during the episodes and scenes he was in, because he is very, very beautiful. Daou also made me not look at the subtitles and having to rewind the episode to see what I had missed.

CURRENTLY WATCHING

Dramas:

Desire (Chinese Omegaverse drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 11/16 episodes
10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays - 10/12 episodes
My Magic Prophecy (Thai BL) - Weekly, Sundays - 6/10 episodes
I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays - 6/13 episodes
Shine (Thai drama) - Weekly, Saturdays - 6/8 episodes
Khemjira (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays or Sundays - 5/12 episodes
Secret Lover* (Taiwanese BL) - No schedule - 5/12

Desire

I’m enjoying the toxicity, though I feel like it’s a bit slow at times. I don’t really have an issue with that, but I know some people do. I loved seeing Hua Yong being the fakest bitch ever and now that the truth is out, I’m enjoying that too… he’s just so unhinged. And like every week, I feel the need to protect Gao Tu, but I’m also starting to be fond of Mister Shen “Chronic Foot in Mouth” Wenlang. He cares about Gao Tu; he is just very very very emotionally stunted that he cannot show it in a normal way. I also love Hua Yong and Shen Wenlang’s weird friendship.

10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40

The past two episodes have been my least favorite, but I understand their purpose in the narrative. I am looking forward to the resolution, and I need to read the manga because I’ve heard there are differences. And you all know I love 1) checking the differences between the source material and its adaptations, 2) el chisme.

My Magic Prophecy

It's quite cute, but there's also sadness and angst. What I like the most is the dynamic between the protagonists. I know it’s going to have a happy ending, so there’s no need to stress about it.

I’m the Most Beautiful Count

It's a very fun series that sometimes makes my heart hurt when it touches on themes of unjust laws and oppression. I am really liking Nut Supanut. I know there’s a lot of controversy about the adaptation and that Thai fans are not happy with it. I read some context, but I am still gonna finish it. I’m totally invested.

Shine

Gods, this show has been really good; every single episode has managed to leave me breathless and speechless. It’s beautifully filmed, and the story is compelling (for me). Also, the beauty of Apo Nattawin has me hooked. I am almost tempted to watch KinnPorsche just for him one of these days, but he looks very baby there and I kinda prefer how he looks as Trin. There are only two episodes left of this one, and I’m looking forward to them. I admit I don’t want a happy ending for this one, but as a person who tries to never set any kind of expectation, I hope it keeps surprising me. I’ve heard some people don’t like BOC because they think their stories are pretentious, and only having seen Man Suang, I could agree, but I’m genuinely liking Shine a lot. A LOT.

Khemjira

This one is so good, too!! I didn’t hesitate to start it even though it said it was going to be spooky, but so far it’s been fine for a scaredy cat like me. I’m enjoying it, and I would like to know more about the magic and rituals it integrates into the story. I’ve read some of the chats Pheem uses are actual rituals from Thai folklore. The mains are cute, and the side couple is cute, too. And the ghosts are mostly sad, except the evil lady ghost. She creeps me out.

*Secret Lover

I almost dropped it and I'm not caught up anymore, but I'm feeling curious to see what has happened. Is it FOMO or my obsession with finishing things? It's just that at some point it started to bore me, but if I watch a couple of episodes and it grabs my attention again, I'll consider giving it a second chance.

Anime:

The Summer Hikaru Died – Weekly, Saturdays – 8/?
Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12
Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12

On hold

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL drama) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

CURRENTLY READING

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26
Counterattack - Chapter 189 (I actually managed to read a bit since the last update!)
Panguan - Chapter 6

I started reading Panguan last week for the Read Along organized by

geraineon

The thing is that I started it without having finished Counterattack... And when I started reading Counterattack, I did it without having finished SVSSS Vol. 4. That means now I have three novels in progress.

I don't make wise decisions... But... shiny new things.

Current Location: The Void
Current Music: Ceremony - Stray Kids

Things are finally calming down a bit here (for now, I don’t trust the universe anymore). The kid started high school today, and he’s excited… at least that gives me some peace of mind. We’re still waiting to see if his conservatory schedule can be switched to mornings; only after that’s sorted will I finally be able to breathe. Oh, and if it gets resolved before classes start (they’re on summer break now), I might even make it to the BillyBabe fanmeeting on September 1st… yes, another one, oops. Anyway, here’s what I’ve watched/read/made this past week.

Currently making

The Yuri on Ice embroidery - The top is done, but I haven’t taken pictures

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26 (still here, my brain hasn’t been friendly to me and reading is hard these days)
Counterattack - Chapter 122

Currently watching

Dramas:

Revenged Love ( Chinese BL) - Weekly, Mondays and Tuesdays - 23/24 episodes (Tomorrow’s the finale)
The Promise of the Soul (Taiwanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays – 8/12 episodes
Memoir of Rati (Thai BL) - Weekly, Fridays - 8/12 episodes
Desire (Chinese Omegaverse drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 7/16 episodes
10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays - 6/12 episodes
Secret Lover (Taiwanese BL) - No idea when the episodes air - 4/12
My Magic Prophecy (Thai BL) - Weekly, Sundays - 3/10 episodes
I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays - 2/13 episodes
Shine (Thai drama) - Weekly, Saturdays - 2/8 episodes
Khemjira (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays or Sundays - 1/12 episodes

Anime:

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12
The Summer Hikaru Died – Weekly, Saturdays – 6/? (I haven’t checked how many episodes this will have)
Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12

On hold

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL drama) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

First, let me talk about the ones that have me completely obsessed… in a chokehold, lol.

Revenged Love

The week before last, I binge watched episodes 2 through 16 of Revenged Love, and I caught up just in time to watch episodes 17 and 18 on Monday and Tuesday. I was fully prepared to wait weekly for the remaining episodes… until Gaga announced that episodes 19 and 20 would drop on Friday (august 8), followed by daily releases starting on Saturday, all the way through tomorrow (august 12).

On one hand, the news was thrilling: no more weekly waits! On the other hand, it completely wrecked my carefully balanced viewing schedule. Still, I think I chose a good time to start watching, since it meant I wouldn’t have to wait long to finish the series. That said, I’ll admit there’s a certain charm to weekly anticipation: more time to theorize about what’s coming next and dissect the characters’ motivations and shenanigans.

But honestly, given all the bizarre behavior from certain fans (I only hear about it secondhand… I don’t even have a xitter or weibo accounts, or whatever other platforms host these “controversies”) and the looming threat of censorship derailing the show, I think we all breathed a sigh of relief when the full series’ release was confirmed.

I started this show out of curiosity, and before I knew it, I was completely hooked. It’s got everything that keeps me interested in a story: toxicity, comedy, angst, morally questionable characters… what can I say? It even made me curious enough to start reading the novel it’s based on, and… well, that’s a whole other beast. Sometimes I have to put my phone down and question my life choices, wondering, what the hell am I even reading?

I have so many thoughts about the novel, and not just about the dubcon or the rampant manipulation between characters, nope. From what I’ve heard, even the author has warned people not to read it, and I totally get why. But between my morbid curiosity and wanting to see how much they changed for the adaptation, I’ll probably finish it… eventually. Maybe I’ll take a break first and finally finish reading SVSSS to appease my conscience.

Desire

Then there’s Desire, another show keeping me on the edge of my seat week after week. It still feels surreal that we’re getting a live action omegaverse series… and a deliciously toxic one at that (at least for me). Every week, I’m impressed by Hua Yong’s masterclass in manipulation, and every week, my heart breaks a little more for Gao Tu (this week’s episode revealed we share our birthday, so now I have even more reason to root for this poor omega pretending to be a beta)...

And can we talk about the non-con body modification? The fact that an alpha pregnancy is central to the plot (in a world where alphas dominate) is fascinating. The implications are ripe for deep analysis, maybe even a serious essay… but not from me. I’m no academic, and while dissecting these themes sounds really tempting, the idea of actually writing something like that is overwhelming. Still, I’d absolutely read it if someone else did it.

10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40

EpAnother series that’s completely charmed me is 10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40. At first, the premise’s similarity to Old Fashioned Cupcake threw me off, but by the second episode, I was sold. Office romance? Age gap? A nearly 40 year old protagonist wrestling with insecurities and emotional repression, embarking on a journey of self discovery alongside a handsome younger man? Yes, please. And no, it has nothing to do with the fact that I, too, am nearing 40 with my own set of insecurities. Nope.

Shine

Then there’s Shine. SHINE. Only two episodes in (and they’re an hour each!), but it’s SO good. The historical and sociopolitical context is fascinating, and reading about it to better understand the story is one of my favorite parts of watching dramas and movies from other countries.

This week’s episode started intensely, with the terror of a forbidden relationship (defying an oppressive system) and the loss of it, followed by the constant (if futile) threat of never being able to break free. I love how each character’s backstory unfolds and connects to the bigger narrative. Also, it’s visually stunning, and the soundtrack? Chef’s kiss.

I didn’t have any kind of expectations like some fans that are more informed and have been following the news about it (I just learned about it when they released the teaser, and this is, in fact, the first BOC series I watch), but I’m so glad I started it. There’ll be only eight episodes, but I’m eager to see where it goes. And of course, obligatory mention of Apo… because good lord, that man is unbelievably handsome.

I’m also keeping up with The Promise of the Soul, Memoir of Rati, My Magic Prophecy, and I’m the Most Beautiful Count. I’m enjoying them all, but right now I don’t have the energy to write more in detail about them… I used it all up writing about the others. Is anyone else watching these? I’d love to talk about them!

And, of course, I’m incorrigible… I’ve added two more shows to my list: Secret Lover (it’s okay, but I’m not fully connecting yet) and Khemjira (supernatural horror with ghosts… which terrify me, but the curse/karma themes have me intrigued enough to keep watching).

I’m also following The Summer Hikaru Died, and I really want to read the manga. I just need to make time for it (I haven’t checked where to read it legally, and I refuse to buy the digital version on amazon because of reasons)

There’s also an idea for a post I’ve been thinking about a lot… about Sanrio Danshi and a viral video of the lawyer/school director who loves Pompompurin. The thoughts have been there for weeks, but between time and my usual "how do I even start writing?" paralysis, it hasn’t happened yet. But I want to.

Anyway, that’s all for now. Are we back to long posts? We’ll see… we’ll see…

It's been a week since I finished Winter Begonia, and I still can't stop thinking about it. So many scenes are permanently etched in my mind - I absolutely need to try making fanart... this story just won't let me go. Yet another flawless recommendation from geraineon <3

Another list without commentary this time, but I’ll try harder next week. At least I think I’m getting back on track.

Currently making

The Yuri on Ice embroidery - slow progress. very very slow, but the top is finished, now the trousers

Currently reading

Counterattack - Chapter 71 (yeah, I started something new without having finished the previous one ToT)
SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26 (no progress)

Finished watching

Summer Indigo (Korean vertical* BL drama) - 60 mini episodes

Currently watching

Dramas:

Revenged Love ( Chinese** BL) - Weekly, Mondays and Tuesdays - 17/24 episodes (Yes, I binge watched this, but it’s because it is toxic, and there are snakes! And it’s been very very entertaining)
The Promise of the Soul (Taiwanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays – 7/12 episodes
Desire (Chinese Omegaverse drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 6/16 episodes
10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays - 5/12 episodes
Memoir of Rati (Thai BL) - Weekly, Fridays - 7/12 episodes
My Magic Prophecy (Thai BL) - Weekly, Sundays - 2/10 episodes
I’m the Most Beautiful Count (Thai BL) - Weekly, Saturdays - 1/13 episodes
Shine (Thai drama***) - Weekly, Saturdays - 1/8 episodes

Anime:

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 7/12
The Summer Hikaru Died – Weekly, Saturdays – 5/? (I haven’t checked how many episodes this will have)
Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12

On hold

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL drama) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

*Please don't judge me lol

**MDL says it’s Chinese, Gaga says it’s from Singapore… I imagine it is something similar to whatever is going on with Desire. I understand that it’s because of the censorship, but I don’t fully grasp how it works.

***I don’t think it’s BL properly, but holy shit, that first episode was very good. I am going to be waiting for the next episode.

Current Music: Your Idol - Saja Boys

I meant to post this last week, but... well, life happened (as usual... I know it's a tired excuse, but it's the truth... life just keeps happening and it's been so much). Anyway, here's everything I finished or was watching before July 28. Just throwing this out there to keep this space breathing... or at least on life support. If anyone's watching any of these, please say hi. I've been feeling a bit disconnected from everything lately, and it's been kind of lonely.

Currently making

The Yuri on Ice embroidery - whenever I can, I’m almost done with the jacket? Is it a jacket? Well, that part of the costume

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26 (still here, my brain hasn’t been friendly to me and reading is hard these days)

Finished watching

Winter Begonia (Chinese drama) - 49 episodes
The Ex-Morning (Thai BL drama) - 10 episodes
Depth of Field (Japanese BL drama) - 6 episodes

Currently watching

Dramas:

The Promise of the Soul (Taiwanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays – 6/12 episodes
Desire (Chinese* Omegaverse drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 5/16 episodes
10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – Weekly, Fridays - 4/12 episodes
Memoir of Rati (Thai BL) - Weekly, Fridays - 6/12 episodes

Anime:

Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 6/12
Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12
The Summer Hikaru Died – Weekly, Saturdays – 4/?

On hold

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL drama) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

*I thinks it's actually a Taiwanese production, but I'm still not sure about how it works. And I can't believe there's a live action omegaverse drama airing right now. What a time to be alive.

Trying to come back after weeks of not even opening this page. I actually started writing an update two weeks ago, but life got too busy. This list comes without commentary because, honestly, I don’t even remember what I wanted to say about the stuff I was watching (I mean, I remember the important points, but putting them into words would take time and energy, and I prefer to use that for the latest update). That said, I do have this week’s update ready, but that’ll go in a separate post. For now, I figured I’d just post this draft.

Finished making

The Heart Killers fanmeeting freebies

Currently making

The Yuri on Ice embroidery

Currently reading

SVSSS Vol. 4 - Chapter 26

Finished watching

Break Up Service (Thai drama) – 12 episodes
Mentiras La Serie (Mexican drama) – 8 episodes (Look I watch mexican stuff once in a blue moon)

Currently watching

Dramas:

Winter Begonia (Chinese) – Weekly, weekends – 43/49 episodes
The Ex-Morning (Thai BL) – Weekly, Thursdays – 8/10 episodes
The Promise of the Soul (Taiwanese BL) – No idea what day it’s airing, lol – 4/12 episodes
Desire (Chinese* Omegaverse drama) – Weekly, Saturdays, hopefully – 3/16 episodes
10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 40 (Japanese BL) – Weekly, it air on Fridays, but I’ll probably watch it on Saturday or Sunday - 2/12 episodes

Anime:

Komi Can’t Communicate – No schedule – 4/24
Sanrio Danshi – No schedule – 2/12
Rokuhōdō Yotsuiro Biyori – No schedule – 2/12
The Summer Hikaru Died – Weekly, Fridays – 1/? (I haven't looked up the number of episodes)

On hold

The Bangkok Boy (Thai BL drama) – Weekly, Saturdays – 2/12 episodes
Perfect 10 Liners (Thai BL drama) – No schedule – 4/24 episodes

*MDL says it's chinese but iirc, it's a taiwanese production. But I could be wrong.

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