Sunday

Thinking about TikTok

These days I have been thinking about why I dislike TikTok so much and also that I should probably write a post so I can get it out of my chest. But I need to organize my ideas first.

Chores, routines, the weather

It's been a couple of weeks of rainy and cold weather, the hurricanes don't give us a break... And I'm aware that my state isn't affected as much as other regions of the country (or other countries), but still, the flooding in the city, the countless potholes in the streets, the propensity to get sick... there are many things that are accentuated by the rains.

But in the matters of my daily life, rain also has an impact.

I tend to have a low body temperature and have a hard time getting warm. So the constant cold and humid weather makes me sleepy ALL THE TIME. I sometimes joke that I'm a reptile and need to lie in the sun to get warm... And maybe I'm not really a snake or a lizard, but the rest is very true.

That makes doing stuff very hard. I struggle to get up (the dark season doesn't help either) and move. I have to wrap myself in layers and layers of warm clothes to be able to move. It's a bit ridiculous, considering that this region isn't even that cold. We don't even have snow here.  But our houses don't have central heating.

But housework has to be done.

Today I didn't want to get out the bed. But I did some laundry, went to the supermarket and even cooked today's meal. Very productive day, despite everything.

I also finished my Chinese handwriting homework. 

I ate mole with rice today and it reminded me of the experiment I want to do: mole filled mooncakes, inspired by the mala paste mooncakes Neon (I don't know how to mention users, maybe I will find out half an hour after posting this lol) mentioned on fedi during Mid-autumn festival. I hope I am not commiting culinary heresy or something.

Books and sadness

Now that I finished reading The Sign, I can continue reading Global Examination. And it's such a fun book. Qin Jiu and You Huo amuse me a lot.

I was also going through the list of books I've read this year and I'm a little depressed by the fact that there are so few. And it makes me a little jealous too seeing people read one book after another.

I make a living out of reading all day every day, but it feels soulless, mechanic... And even though I learn a lot about different subjects, it isn't a joyous activity at all.

I try to tell myself that this is not a competition, that it doesn't matter that everyone reads so much interesting stuff, not only books, but also articles, short stories... but at some point my brain just refuses to read. It is easier to watch something, to listen to music...

Maybe, if numbers were all that mattered, I could count every course I read and edit as a book on my list, lol. But that's not the point.

I can't even join reading challenges anymore... it's just a lot and, honestly, I have a lot on my plate all the time, ha. And at the beginning of this year I left a book club with a group of friends and acquaintances from outside the internet because honestly the level of discussion was not what I expected and the selection of books was not to my liking.

Sharing my thoughts about the novels I read on fedi has worked, but I always feel like I could do more, read more instead of watching a show, but we circle back to the exhaustion and my brain refusing to cooperate. Sometimes I miss being young and being a voracious reader. But life happens, I guess.

My goal for this year is finishing Global Examination and maybe one more novel.

Now is time to go to bed, being warm and maybe dream about the fic I started writing at some point when I started watching The Sign. That is exciting. Hehe.